Totally Binged Today, badly

I am seeing a psychologist for various things, eating issues included, and Asperger's Assessment but I am not seeing her now for over a week, and have not seen her for over a week. I was doing okay when I saw her last. Things seem to have badly deteriorated since my bf stopped contact with me without a word.

I am so sorry. Mine did the same thing in January and it was very rough for a while, today was a quite bad eating day for me because of thoughts/emotions.

If there's anything you like doing that occupies your hands and mind, it can help sllowww dowwwn the eating ... I end up playing way too many computer games when I can't sleep at night but I figure that that is better than stuffing myself with food to drown it ... the games force my thoughts into a different pattern. I also spend a lot of sleepless time posting on message boards because again it forces my thoughts out of the "rut".

I have found that the binge eating is worse when I have taken my sleeping pill, I am on temazepam. I tend to sit up on my laptop until the sleepiness kicks in, and suddenly it is as if this monster takes over and I lose all ability to rein it in. I keep telling myself, to go to bed as soon as I take it, but not sure that will help. I did notice it was easier when I cut the dosage. I did sometimes binge or certainly stuff down a lot of sugary, unhealthy things in the daytime, but not to a degree I felt really uncomfortable.

I admit, I need to find a hobby again, I think my bf filled so much of my evening and thoughts, probably the Aspergers in me, and I am struggling to get into an interest again. I used to totally absorb myself in Second Life, but after years there, I tend to now just login and leave her sitting there, lol. I have embroidery here, and card making kits, I just need to drag myself off my laptop and get doing them. I also have a camera again finally, my ex popped over and lent me a really nice camera, as that used to be a major outlet for me, so that should help me once I start shooting again.

I have had many evenings I did fine. I have had years when apart from some over exercising, I was healthy and fine and not obsessed with my weight anymore. In fact, I was happy at 140Ibs for sometime and didn't even know I was that weight, but meeting my bf , who is very skinny, seemed to trigger me off, especially as he would come round for dinner and cook himself up things like a whole cauliflower with a bit of cheese, or a load of marrow, and say it was loads... all water. He dropped 14 Ibs and was down to the same weight as me and being a former anorexic with all the stupid thoughts that go with that, I decided I had to be a stone lighter than him, and started getting obsessed again.

Now I am finding myself unable to get back to that comfortable, don't care about the scales place I was at.
But I am sure I will get there. I eat very healthy food when I don't binge, and I know about balanced meals and nutrition a fair amount, I just really need to work out some sort of a way to deal with my tendency to want sweet things so much. I don't want to be extreme and cut chocolate and such things out of my diet altogether, but beginning to think that might be my only way ?

Thanks all again for your kind replies, I was a bit nervous posting about this.
You are great people.