If I make it through September

Hi. Looking for supportive friends. September is a pretty rough month for me. 5 years ago this September I lost my wife giving birth to our baby girl. Still struggle with that loss most days and September is just horrible. Hoping to make friends with other widowers or anyone who can just be supportive when I freak out or disapear this month. I am usually a very funny, kind, and completely inappropriate guy..... but just not right now.
Thanks.