Self sabotage.

I was totally ready to pig out on lemon zucchini bread tonight and I was already 23 calories over. So, I put on my walking shoes, some great music and went for a walk.

Almost the whole time I talked to myself (yeah real sane). I ran through every reason I was doing this. Why this one decision would be one against a dozen why I shouldn't. I am now under calories for the day.

I figure if you can talk yourself into self sabotage you can talk yourself out of it too.

It looks like you are doing an amazing job so far by your weight loss. You are an inspiration. You've got this.

Awareness of trying to self sabotage is the first step to combating this behavior. This moment, this breath. Tomorrow is a new day.

I was totally ready to pig out on lemon zucchini bread tonight and I was already 23 calories over. So, I put on my walking shoes, some great music and went for a walk.

Almost the whole time I talked to myself (yeah real sane). I ran through every reason I was doing this. Why this one decision would be one against a dozen why I shouldn't. I am now under calories for the day.

I figure if you can talk yourself into self sabotage you can talk yourself out of it too.

It looks like you are doing an amazing job so far by your weight loss. You are an inspiration. You've got this.

Lol, this.

Your profile pic and pounds lost are inspirational enough to be in the success stories tab. Just look how far you've come! I would love to have made real progress like that. Don't beat yourself up over a few bad days.

Please, try to be a bit kinder to yourself. It sounds cheesy, but it's true - angels fly because they take themselves lightly.

My philosophy in joining MFP is to treat my weight loss like a game. I haven't done as well as you. Yet. Just you wait!

If you really do want to know why you overeat when you've hit a new low, there is no shame in talking to a therapist. But really, it doesn't matter if you stop eating right for a couple of days. Acknowledge you did it, and move on, back to living the way you do now. It's OK to have a wobble from the path you've chosen sometimes.

I did in fact binge, for quite a few days. I'd finally made it to a one hundred pound loss and then I threw it away. I want to be fitter not fatter.

I realize today is a new day, I just don't like having that attitude for too many days in a row. It gets old real fast.

Maybe you're right...I do have to talk myself into a binge, so maybe I'll have to work on doing the opposite. Maybe I should write down all the reasons I am doing this as a reminder for motivation.

Hmmm, EVERY TIME I hit a new low I do this. I don't get it. Maybe I do think I don't deserve it. I know I never imagined I would get this far, it's almost hard to believe I did this (with help). I don't know, I'm all over the place here. I'm all confused. TavistockToad, I think you may have opened a can of worms.

Fear of achieving our goals is just as hard to deal with as fear of not achieving them. Before it goes too far down the wrong path maybe find someone to talk to about it. It looks like you have come so far already. Good job and Good Luck.

We all go through this and I don't think any of us understand it. I have been losing weight pretty quickly and I know it's happening, but when I tried on the pair of pants I thought I should finally fit in this week there was no change in how tight they were. I was VERY angry and felt like all the hard work that I've been putting in didn't do any good so I went on a binge (yeah, makes sense right?). I KNOW full well that I lose weight in my hips and butt only after everything else on my body is gone. It's just so frustrating and I think that I just wanted instant happiness from food since I didn't get any happiness from how the pants fit. =(

Firstly congratulations on an amazing loss. You are doing an amazing job and you should be very proud of yourself. I hope you are also feeling amazing on the inside. I have just started out on my journey "again". I have lost a lot of focus on myself after letting life take over, study, work, new relationship, winter (I'm in Australia). Downloaded the app and am already loving it. The day before I started I had a self-sabotage day, I just ate so much junk and it's like I don't even register I'm doing it, or even really care. I think sometimes it's easy to get in your head oh I'll start again tomorrow etc. I think one thing for me was, even though I downloaded the app after I had had a bad eating day, I actually decided to enter all the bad food I had eaten into that day to make myself accountable. Lets just say I didn't like the little message it told me about how much I'd weigh in 5 weeks if I continued to eat like that everyday :-(.

Self-sabotage is like short term gain for long term pain, although you think it's good at the time, in the long term it's not. I am trying to learn to switch it around to short term pain for long term gain, like better health, more energy, clothes shopping, feeling good on the inside. These things don't happen overnight, and I strongly believe overeating derives from childhood habits, self-worth and whether we think we deserve to look and feel good. I am an emotional eater, I let stress, event organising, study procrastination and other things get to me. It's a vicious circle really.

The good thing about life is, we have choices and we can choose what we put in our bodies, it's never going to be "easy" there will always be people who have to watch everything they eat and workout harder and there will always be people who can get away with eating whatever they wish without gaining any weight. Keep on your amazing journey, every single day is a day of opportunity, make sure you log your food even on a day you think is a bad day. Be accountable and acknowledge you can make the next day better than the last.

Ps be kind to yourself :-)

It's because deep down you don't believe you deserve it.

TT - this is by far the best description I have seen :flowerforyou: