Upset with myself

I started off with over 100 lbs to lose, and at this minute I'm 4 lbs off goal, it has taken me 3 1/2 years to get this far because I kept falling off the dieting wagon, most people lapse from time to time, my problem is I self sabotage lol, as soon as I see a goal in sight I lapse, yes I could have done it in half the time if I'd been consistent, buy hey I'm not perfect
The point I'm trying to make is although you've lapsed, your now back and starting again, you should be pleased with yourself for doing that, instead of beating yourself up
It gets easier, I promise, good luck x