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Lose30x30
Lose30x30 Posts: 7
in Motivation and Support
Hello out there -

I'm writing because 5 days ago was my "start" - and it's been 5 days of half-hearted, start-the-day-out-right-and-end-it-horribly, inconsistent exercise and eating. And I've got to figure out why.

It's not a question of contentedness - I'm terribly unhappy with my body right now. I walk past a mirror in the ladies' room at work several times a day and wince when I see myself in profile, every time. I feel uncomfortable in my clothes. I feel uncomfortable in certain positions - it's just unnecessary! And I know it! So why. can't. I. commit. ?!

There aren't even grand occasions in my way, like parties or group lunches - it's just me eating too much and the wrong things, and sleeping in instead of exercising. There is literally no barrier - I put a workout room next to my bedroom! I sleep in yoga clothes! I have a fridge stocked with healthy things...so why am I stopping at CVS for packaged junk food instead of eating my healthy lunch? Why am I browsing the internet at night rather than going for a run?

I'm an athlete at heart, and in February I ran a half marathon and it's embarrassing to tell people that now because I'm back in a rut and I don't know how to break out of it.

I might be able to put it aside if I didn't give in and go buy 2 larger pairs of pants last night. I feel like I gave in and resolved to this weight. In reality, I needed them - the other ones didn't button well...but still. It allowed me to buy them, change and go to town at dinner. It allowed me to feel comfortable when I'm so uncomfortable. I'm frustrated mentally and physically and don't know how to get back to my normal self.

Help?

C

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  • supersmellyflower
    supersmellyflower Posts: 12 Member
    I felt very similar recently....here are somethings that helped me:

    I ate very strictly for a weekend( honestly, probably too little) and walked.

    After that weekend I felt much less bloated and like I actually accomplished something. I think the psychological boost was what I needed because after that I was motivated enough to plan out my meals and go to group classes. I'm still working on better logging, but it's a start.

    It was rough not being able to do things I could do before the weight gain, but I find that yoga helps me focus on other goals besides weight/size.

    I would suggest setting some small goals and not focus on the disappointment/self blaming of the weight gain. I don't know if it applies to you, but my problem was that I was/am "too hard" on myself for making mistakes. If that's the case, try to let go of that.
  • Sweetvirgo63
    Sweetvirgo63 Posts: 119 Member
    Maybe you need to start over with baby steps. Define for yourself a core reason you want to get healthier and stick to it even though you'll stumble every now and then.

    Don't kick yourself down; it won't help. Remember that the image you see in the mirror doesn't really define who are you as a person. Yes, it shows your outward appearance but not who you are on the inside.

    You ran a half-marathon in February? Maybe you can plan to do another one - it will give you a goal to aim for.

    Just don't give up on yourself.

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