Help Please - I'm becoming too obsessive.

I welcome any and all advice and I thank anyone in advance for taking the time to write me back.

I quit smoking weed and cigarettes back in January of this year; my diet and lifestyle was reasonably okayish despite that. After I quit and readjusted to life again sans crutch I began to exercise and step my game up a little: eating more veg, cutting out junk altogether. I started running in February and then I started to reduce my sugars down.

I've been sugar-free (no fruit) and low-carb for 2 months now, perhaps minimising pasta/potatoes/refined carbs for around six months to a year beforehand and I started ketoing about 3 weeks ago. I've learnt a lot and tried a lot of things which I'd never dreamt I would. I cook every darned meal from scratch and I'm really enjoying eating wholefoods.

I've discovered a whole river of fish, a variatble smorgas board of cheeses, clearer skin, yoga, abseiling, and my hipbones.. But the negatives are starting to outweigh the positives now. I have super cravings, I'm becoming obsessive, bitter and jealous of others with their yummy foods, and sometimes I don't feel satiated no matter what I do.

I've recently come down as far as weighing 8 and a half stone (119lbs) and I'm 5`6. I struggle for perspective with this as six years ago I weighed close to 19 stone (260lbs). I know BMI isn't wholy accurate but it recommends I weigh between 8 st 3 and 11 st. I am 24 years old.

Since starting this mess I have become more anxious than usual, my periods have stopped, and in the last few days I've started to binge. Dare I admit it.. last night's feast had me hunched over the loo, my fingers down my throat. I know.

Enough is enough.. this is far too restrictive and I am developing an unhealthy relationship with food. I'm just really scared I won't have control of myself if I allow moderate-carbs back in. I'll overreat and start to gain. I am terrified what with being a bigger lass in the past. I'm asking for help from you guys before things get any more sillier.. I just want to be able to eat normally with my family without being a fusspot, and maintain my weight at around 9 stone (126lbs) as that's about right for my height/build. I want to be fit and healthy, spend the right amount of conscious effort on my fitness and not feel guilty if I slip up. This militant style doesn't really allow for any wiggle room for relaxing. I miss simple things like baked beans on toast.

I've become far too strict and there are only so many ways to eat eggs and nuts are driving me.. well you guessed it.
Don't get me wrong - it's fun and empowering finding out you can make cauliflower pizza crusts and muffins in the microwave with coconut flour but I would much rather make biscuits out of butterbeans. I miss chocolate and carrots and mashed potato. I'm sick of reading brown sugar or dextrose on chicken and sausages, respectively, and dropping them sadly back on the shelf.

Can anybody offer up any words of encouragement/suggestions of how I go about adding carbs and low sugar fruits back in? If I'm actually binging.. which I haven't done in years.. surely this isn't a healthy diet to adopt. Thanks again guys.