Wanting to eat crap...not literally!

sometimes you have to indulge, just dont go crazy or make it a habit. a little junk here and there wont hurt

Totally know where you are coming from. Had this happen to me. I fixed it though and you can too.
I found myself losing control and messing up and ruining every day. SOOOO, I said screw it.
I went crazy 1 day and got it out of my system. I ruined 1 day instead of everyday. You know what happened?
(You Talking) - What Happened?
It kicked my metabolism into high gear again and the scale started to move again. I did some research and found out
that you need a cheat meal to get things moving again. Seems your body will get use to all that good clean food and it won't have to work so hard. Kinda like when your muscles get use to that weight and you have to go heavier to get results.
So I took a day and ate what I want. Now about every 4-6 weeks I go thru this I gotta eat everything I see day. Over the course of
my program it doesn't hurt. Sure, for a few days the scale goes up a pound or 2 but by the 4th or 5th day I'm down lower.

Staying power is the hardest part of weight loss. I've been at this for 3 years and struggling with my last 20. BUT I will not give up, I don't care how many times I have have to dust myself off and give myself a mental slap - I know what I want: to be healthy for the rest of my life, to grow old to see the kids grow old, and to keep feeling as damn good as I do now. I know what I don't want: to go back to the person who had to give up the job she loved for 14 years because the medical problems got to be so bad, to be told by the doctor again that quite possibly they would have to amputate my legs because they couldn't get the infections in them under control (and btw, I didn't even have diabetes, that was just the result of poor circulation/lymphedema from the weight), not being able to go to the movies or walk to the end of my driveway or feel f'n miserable all the time.

You cannot think of this as a diet. It is something you will be doing for the rest of your life if you want to maintain it after you get where you want to be. Kinda sucks - I think we would all like to say ok I've reached my goal now I can go on my merry way and do what I want. But it doesn't work that way. It takes true commitment and a change of habits. That means sacrificing and ... I guess going through a little torture to get there. That is all a mental thing - get your head wrapped around what it is you want, what it is you are going to do to get there. Try to stay focused on that - write it down every 10 min if you have to on those days you struggle (trust me, I'm doing that today).

Remember, you will have ups and downs but as long as you continue to try and give 1000% you will get there eventually and stay there!!!

Good luck!