I have to face my "before" and almost "after"...

AJCM
AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
edited September 19 in Health and Weight Loss
So, for my part time work, I have some media spots that I do. I did a few news spots in January of '08, and after it aired it was a huge wake up call about my weight.

"Am I really THAT I big?" I said to myself in disbelief. I hoped that the camera added 30 lbs, but I knew the truth.

Jump to present day, I just got a call 5 minutes ago, and with little warning, I have to do another media appearance THIS WEEK!!! Ugh!!!

I'm so disappointed in myself that I haven't lost all my weight! I'm flooded with anxiety over this, and now I will have to see my old self again (they are cutting together the two interviews) cut with my new slim self - I'm almost feeling embarrassed now over how much larger I was before... and people are going to see this... again...

Ugh - thanks for letting me rant a bit here, I'm just so stressed out (over inconsequential things, I know)...
:ohwell: :flowerforyou:

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  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    So, for my part time work, I have some media spots that I do. I did a few news spots in January of '08, and after it aired it was a huge wake up call about my weight.

    "Am I really THAT I big?" I said to myself in disbelief. I hoped that the camera added 30 lbs, but I knew the truth.

    Jump to present day, I just got a call 5 minutes ago, and with little warning, I have to do another media appearance THIS WEEK!!! Ugh!!!

    I'm so disappointed in myself that I haven't lost all my weight! I'm flooded with anxiety over this, and now I will have to see my old self again (they are cutting together the two interviews) cut with my new slim self - I'm almost feeling embarrassed now over how much larger I was before... and people are going to see this... again...

    Ugh - thanks for letting me rant a bit here, I'm just so stressed out (over inconsequential things, I know)...
    :ohwell: :flowerforyou:
  • eyescatchfire
    eyescatchfire Posts: 257 Member
    Listen, you look amazing now--don't worry about the last 4 pounds. Those last pounds are for you (heck, the first 25 were for you, too!)

    It's too bad you couldn't change the spot to "See how awesome I look now, after losing 25 pounds! Oh yeah, and we invaded Russia." I'd watch that!
  • monica5237
    monica5237 Posts: 450
    So, for my part time work, I have some media spots that I do. I did a few news spots in January of '08, and after it aired it was a huge wake up call about my weight.

    "Am I really THAT I big?" I said to myself in disbelief. I hoped that the camera added 30 lbs, but I knew the truth.

    Jump to present day, I just got a call 5 minutes ago, and with little warning, I have to do another media appearance THIS WEEK!!! Ugh!!!

    I'm so disappointed in myself that I haven't lost all my weight! I'm flooded with anxiety over this, and now I will have to see my old self again (they are cutting together the two interviews) cut with my new slim self - I'm almost feeling embarrassed now over how much larger I was before... and people are going to see this... again...

    Ugh - thanks for letting me rant a bit here, I'm just so stressed out (over inconsequential things, I know)...
    :ohwell: :flowerforyou:

    It will be great to see your before and now pictures and to have everyone see them too. don't feel embarressed or any anxiety over it be proud of yourself fo rgetting where you are now!!!:flowerforyou:
  • CrystalBella
    CrystalBella Posts: 848 Member
    Seems like a good thing to me. People are goin to see you and go "wow, she's EVEN hotter, if that's possible!"

    You're fine girlie! :flowerforyou:
  • Gator4RTR
    Gator4RTR Posts: 119 Member
    Dont kick yourself AJ...You Look Awesome!! :flowerforyou:
  • alyfin
    alyfin Posts: 103
    You've lost 27 lbs! Only 4 to go. Don't beat yourself up too badly.
    And who knows, maybe you will see your new self and will look even better than you think.
    Good luck and have fun with the job. :smile:
  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    THANK YOU to all you guys - you sure know how to cheer a gal up! You're all very kind.

    My concern is that I didn't think I looked so bad before and then saw the video... :noway:

    Thanks MFP friends!!
    :flowerforyou:

    (Hey - is it a bad sign that I posted on here before e-mailing my hubby???) :blushing:
  • Anna_Banana
    Anna_Banana Posts: 2,939 Member
    You look great. Don't sweat it.
  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    Oh - and I should mention, that everyone you see on the news who look "normal" on screen, are, in reality, so thin that I feared if I were to walk past them too quickly, they might just blow over....
    :laugh: :tongue:
  • Fab140
    Fab140 Posts: 1,976 Member
    (Hey - is it a bad sign that I posted on here before e-mailing my hubby???) :blushing:

    :laugh: :laugh:

    Nope......but I betcha he'll tell you what we're all saying: you look AWESOME. You are in my list of Top FIve Most Motivating MFPers!!

    :flowerforyou:

    You go Sexy Woman!!
  • PrincessLaundry
    PrincessLaundry Posts: 2,758 Member
    You look fantabulous girlie!!! You have done such a great job thus far! YEY YOU! Let us know how your event goes girlie!!! YEY!!!

    :flowerforyou:
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Oh - and I should mention, that everyone you see on the news who look "normal" on screen, are, in reality, so thin that I feared if I were to walk past them too quickly, they might just blow over....
    :laugh: :tongue:

    Yep, I used to spin with an actress. . .and she looked seriously crazy scary skinny. . .and then I saw her on TV and she looked normal. WTH? You will look smoking hot. What will you be on? I want to watch.
  • kimber607
    kimber607 Posts: 7,128 Member
    Hey

    Try not to stress so much...I know that's easier said than done
    Remember that we are toughest on ourselves...I am sure some/most people won't think twice about your weight....if they notice they will probably congratulate you on your weight loss and want some tips

    Lately, when people notice my weight loss (like my derm) the first question they ask is..how did u do it!

    Kim
  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    (Hey - is it a bad sign that I posted on here before e-mailing my hubby???) :blushing:

    :laugh: :laugh:

    Nope......but I betcha he'll tell you what we're all saying: you look AWESOME. You are in my list of Top FIve Most Motivating MFPers!!

    :flowerforyou:

    You go Sexy Woman!!

    That is so kind! YOU are my motivation for this week (I'm having a rough one - ice cream is calling my name - loudly!).

    Thanks for the kind words!
    :flowerforyou:
  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    Thanks for all the kind words guys! I'll wear a dark colour like last time, and all should be well!
    :flowerforyou:
  • shorerider
    shorerider Posts: 3,817 Member
    AJ--I knew you had to do some kind of TV stuff! You look great, don't stress. The people who know you will know what you "really" look like (which is great!). The ones who don't know you, well, who cares what they think, right? :wink:

    You're doing wonderful and continuing to look great, as usual. Keep your spirits up, girl!

    Someone posted something on here weeks ago about ways to hold yourself so it made you look 10 pounds skinnier. Let me see if I can find it, maybe that will help calm your fears.
  • jenbar
    jenbar Posts: 1,038 Member
    Are you kidding me?!
    You are B-E-A- utiful! Don't worry.
    Can you post the news video?
    I'd love to see it!
    How fun!
    We're among a TV personality! haha!:smokin:
  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    AJ--I knew you had to do some kind of TV stuff! You look great, don't stress. The people who know you will know what you "really" look like (which is great!). The ones who don't know you, well, who cares what they think, right? :wink:

    You're doing wonderful and continuing to look great, as usual. Keep your spirits up, girl!

    Someone posted something on here weeks ago about ways to hold yourself so it made you look 10 pounds skinnier. Let me see if I can find it, maybe that will help calm your fears.

    Thanks Shore - appreciate the support! Very kind...
    :flowerforyou:
  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    Are you kidding me?!
    You are B-E-A- utiful! Don't worry.
    Can you post the news video?
    I'd love to see it!
    How fun!
    We're among a TV personality! haha!:smokin:

    Hahaha! Yeah, I'll post it if it turns out well! Last time, the worst one I did was the one that everyone saw - Murphy's Law!

    Have a good one!
    :flowerforyou:
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