What motivates you? I need friends to motivate me!

Hello all!
Im looking for friends to motivate and for them to motivate me, to get my "fitness on". I actually did start exercising last year because one day I had my blood pressure checked. My Doctor told me that I had high blood pressure. Was this me? The one that thought he made of steel and cast from iron now overwieght with high blood pressure and told he was obese? Obese? I couldnt believe it, I knew I was overwieght but now obese? Nevermind that for the last 7 years I was promoted to a manager position "a deskjob" living on fast food and dealing with fires day and night 7 days a week. Seemed like I ignored what my eyes saw in the mirror and tricked my mind into thinking I wasnt too bad, yeah right! So the thought of all this led me and my wife to join a gym. I kind of dragged her along because I dont think she really wanted to join it. But she did and she changed her eating habits and lost alot of wieght. She still goes once in a while and eats much better than I do now. You see last year I was doing really good, eating right and going 3-4 sometimes 6 days a week to the gym. Running up to 3 miles a day. I would see all the other people there at the gym working out and it motivated me. I actually lost 35lbs woo-hoo and had 20 more pounds to go. I was on the right track, the right path and in the best shape I had been in the last 15 years. Then I was delt a severe blow that knocked me down and made me lose my way. My will, my motivation seemed to be taken from me as I was given the news that my 10 year old daughter was diagnosed with cancer. She had 2 operations and is doing great now and cancer free. Yeah sometimes life just isnt fair! And if that wasn't hard enough my father passed away 1 month later. Since then I have gained back 15 pounds I dont workout or run anymore. I need friends for inspiration. I need friends to keep me on the right track. So "friend me" and tell me what motivates you? Thanks