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My name is Jennifer. I just recently turned 39. I had a list of things I wanted to do before I turned 40 and it looks like I won't be able to do a lot of them but there is one that I am determined to do. I DO NOT want to weigh this much when I turn 40. I am currently 288. My highest was 325 and I had gotten down to 265 and was then diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Though I continued to exercise and eat right the medicine the doctor put me on made me gain 30 of it back. I had gotten down to 270 again when I lost my mother to a long time illness. I haven't been below 275 since, and she'll be gone 3 years in October. I know she was always worried about my health and happiness and I feel awful that she passed without seeing me attain either of those things. My deadline is short, 11 months away, and while I don't have a goal that I want to weigh by then, I know I want to weigh less. How much I can reasonably lose in a healthy way has yet to be determined.
I love to exercise, I own a Nordic Track elliptical which is my pride and joy, I have a set of resistance bands instead of weights, which I actually like better, and now two stability balls, though both have a hole somewhere thanks to my kitten so I have to blow them up every time I want to use them! She's lucky she's cute and I love her!
I have a friend, and my mother was very similar, that apparently has the worlds most incredible will power. She has good intentions but makes me feel like an idiot who can't make any good choices. Even in complementing me she makes me feel like it's never good enough. She runs marathons, she's 14 years younger than me, and apparently thinks I'm an idiot. My mother was the type who, almost literally, could want to lose weight and would. She never understood why it was so hard for me, but at least she tried. She worried about me but didn't make me feel like a loser. Hmm, maybe I should consider new friends. At least the one who recommended this place to me is awesome. Thanks again, Erin!
This place seems to be all about finding and sharing motivation, and that's certainly what I'm looking for! Well, to be honest, I have motivation, I just need someone to keep on my behind. Too bad we can't all hire a coach like Oprah to put a padlock on our refrigerators, but we do what we can.
Anyway, if you've gotten this far I absolutely applaud and thank you for reading. I look forward to your responses!
My name is Jennifer. I just recently turned 39. I had a list of things I wanted to do before I turned 40 and it looks like I won't be able to do a lot of them but there is one that I am determined to do. I DO NOT want to weigh this much when I turn 40. I am currently 288. My highest was 325 and I had gotten down to 265 and was then diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Though I continued to exercise and eat right the medicine the doctor put me on made me gain 30 of it back. I had gotten down to 270 again when I lost my mother to a long time illness. I haven't been below 275 since, and she'll be gone 3 years in October. I know she was always worried about my health and happiness and I feel awful that she passed without seeing me attain either of those things. My deadline is short, 11 months away, and while I don't have a goal that I want to weigh by then, I know I want to weigh less. How much I can reasonably lose in a healthy way has yet to be determined.
I love to exercise, I own a Nordic Track elliptical which is my pride and joy, I have a set of resistance bands instead of weights, which I actually like better, and now two stability balls, though both have a hole somewhere thanks to my kitten so I have to blow them up every time I want to use them! She's lucky she's cute and I love her!
I have a friend, and my mother was very similar, that apparently has the worlds most incredible will power. She has good intentions but makes me feel like an idiot who can't make any good choices. Even in complementing me she makes me feel like it's never good enough. She runs marathons, she's 14 years younger than me, and apparently thinks I'm an idiot. My mother was the type who, almost literally, could want to lose weight and would. She never understood why it was so hard for me, but at least she tried. She worried about me but didn't make me feel like a loser. Hmm, maybe I should consider new friends. At least the one who recommended this place to me is awesome. Thanks again, Erin!
This place seems to be all about finding and sharing motivation, and that's certainly what I'm looking for! Well, to be honest, I have motivation, I just need someone to keep on my behind. Too bad we can't all hire a coach like Oprah to put a padlock on our refrigerators, but we do what we can.
Anyway, if you've gotten this far I absolutely applaud and thank you for reading. I look forward to your responses!
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Hi Jennifer,
I am married to a man who, like your mother, can seemingly will any excess weight off. My best freind is kind of like that too. It's a little harder for her, but she seems to have a very poor opinion of those of us who struggle. I have discovered it is very hard to walk this journey along side people like that. I love them, but I am not letting them too close to my journey this time. The only ones I will let get close are those who get it...those who struggle like I do.
I love this site because I am learning so much from it. I am learning lessons from the numbers I am presented with. I am not a numbers kind of person, but the numbers I am seeing here are telling me a lot about myself in ways that do not hurt because they are just numbers. They don't judge. The numbers have told me that I really don't eat too much during the day. My struggle comes at night when I get home from work, The numbers told me that there are 105 calories in a 3 oz. glass of White Zinfandel. My wine glasses are 6-8 oz. and I had been drinking 2-3 glasses a night....DANG...no wonder I wasn't losing any weight. I am relegating wine drinking mostly to the weekend. I am encouraged at the end of the day when my diary tells me that if every day was like this I would weigh ___ number of pounds in 5 weeks. And the fact that it takes these impersonal numbers to tell me these things has taught me a bit about myself. I am not a person who can be told what to do...especially not by people I love and crave their approval...people like my husband and best friend. I cannot get angry at the numbers. They have no significance other than the data they give me about myself. And that is why this site has been working so well for me. I am 4 weeks in and 4 pounds down. I have a long way to go. But I know I will get there. I know this will work. I hope you find the same thing! Welcome!0 -
Hi there! I'm almost 38, have cats, lost my mom in 2009.....sound familiar? Glad to meet you, you're gonna love it here!0
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chezmama, I know exactly how you feel! Sent you a friend request, good to know you!
kim, thanks for the request! Glad to be friends!
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Welcome to MFP! I too have been struggling with my weight with my highest at 327. I love this place and it really helps me a lot! Feel free to add me as a friend if you'd like!0
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Welcome! This place is great! You are gonna love it here!!! :flowerforyou:0
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Thanks, tamanella, I will definitely add you!
And mmrose00, got your add, thank you!!!0
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