My admission i have a food obsession im addicted

You can do this!
Everyone slips, and every eats some food they shouldn't. The best thing to do is to start over with a clean slate and not beat yourself up about the slips. Then focus on positive behaviors. The more positive behaviors you create the easier this will get... even though this is a tough journey.

This can be done with committment. And you've lost the biggest weight in your life already - a husband who basically sounds unworthy of you. Its a hard journey but it seems like you are going into it with your eyes wide open and that is half the battle.

A food addiction is hard to beat, unlike drugs, alcohol, or cigarettes you just can't give up food and there's always something that seems to trigger a craving. I wish I could say that after 3 years of developing a healthy lifestyle the cravings and constant thoughts of food go away but for me they haven't. What has happened is they've become more manageable because I have developed stronger will power, better decision making when it comes to food choices, and expanded my range of foods that I like. Doesn't happen overnight, there will be ups and downs but if you really want to make a change, you just keep sticking with it.

Good luck!

I too love to eat, fortunately for me not only does my metabolism work fairly well, but that I am so self conscious I slapped myself in the face to get a grip before it got too out of control.
I gained 35 lbs after hs within a few short years. I know it doesn't sound like much but I'm really short and being as self-conscious as I am, there is no bathing suit in my closet.

It's been almost ten years since hs. but I have managed to keep off 15 of those pounds permanently but I yo-yo with the other 20 lbs. I know i will never be back at pre-hs weight but I'd like to get close.

I just recently started MFP, and it has really brought to light for me how many calories some of these little indulgences really contained! Now I ask myself every time when I see a cookie if not only is it worth it, but if I've done anything to earn it. And if not I don't eat it. That mentality doesn't always work, but it's saved me from eating many cookies.

All I can say is keep your chin up you aren't alone in your love of food.

Listen, friend. We are here for you! You are extremely valuable, simply because you are you. You were made different from anyone else, and those differences are what make you so special. You are not alone.

I too, as many of us, was addicted to food. I was like a baby with a paci, I really thought I needed food to get through tough times... and I even used it to avoid "feeling".

The way I got over this addiction started with a belief in myself that I could do it. I heard that 90% of women fail at losing weight and only 80% of those who get there, well, they gain it back. Bummer, huh? So I spent the last year or so studying people who lost over a 100lbs and kept it off. I searched the internet for their stories. If they got to be over 100 pounds overweight, they were no different than me. If they can do it, so can we, my friend. We can! You can too! It's simple, but not easy. The only reason it isn't easy is because we stand in our own way! We are our worst enemy! We aren't truthful with ourselves.

First off, know that things are going to get better. You just have to take the first step. Do you believe that you can do it? If you do, then the next step is to trust this program. It works. Look at the rest of us losing weight. You came to the right place. Thirdly, you need to find things you are thankful for in your life. This may be hard in lieu of your recent circumstances, but it isn't impossible. One thing to be thankful for is that you found MFP! Another is that you are in a country where you have access to medical care and nutritious foods, etc... You make a list of as many things you are thankful for as you can think of. Keep it with you and add to it when you think of something new. I'm thankful for simple things, like being able to hear birds sing, and the smell of freshly washed laundry. You know... stretch if you have to.

Meditate on those things you are thankful for. If you can pull yourself out of focusing on what's happened to you, your body will be more receptive to losing weight. It s a stress thing. Can't remember the reasons behind it.

Next you have to forgive the people who hurt you, even though they don't deserve it. Let me tell you why. If you don't, you are carrying too much stress like baggage on you. If you carry that burden, you won't sleep well either, and you need restful sleep to heal and to lose weight. Forgive them, for your own self well-being. You don't have to ever "like" them, or even be on good terms with them... but don't hold onto it as if it will hurt them, just because your hurt and anger are justified. It's not good for you. You need to let go.

Start fresh. Take a deep breath. Know you aren't alone. Most of us who have needed to lose over a 100 pounds or so, lots of us on here, are all in the same boat. Terrible things have happened to many of us. REFOCUS and start thinking about what you want, who you want to be, what your purpose is, and what makes you happy. I'll bet you haven't thought of any of that in a long time. I hadn't. Now it's time.

Keep posting your fears, your frustrations, anything you can... so we can all help you. Also, read the success stories every day. Read others posts and research answers for them. You will feel good about helping and start feeling better about yourself. You deserve good things, and good things are in store for you.... if you just believe in yourself.