Day 44: I wish the scale would read what my body feels

Doing my best to stay on top of things and keeping the hard work up. In all honesty, it's getting harder. While I absolutely love the gym, I love the feeling of working out and the feeling I get afterwards, I love the healthy foods I've been eating and trying, but the kicker - NOTHING has changed on the scale.

I thought that I was starting to kick this plateau, but it seems that I'm not. Maybe it's woman hood creeping up on me, but I'm starting to feel heart broken again. I just have to vent.

I work out 4-6 days a week. I bust my butt doing well over the MFP recommended calorie burn. I do cardio, weights, stretching, etc. I have even conquered the dreaded elliptical. - I hate that machine. As stated before, I love working out! And the feeling afterwards? It's what totally keeps me going and jamming to my iPod.

My eating habits have changed tremendously. I have struggled for years with junk food cravings, emotional eating, and the snacking pitfalls. Now, I get 3 meals a day with 1-2 snacks in between. I have increased my calorie intake because I felt 1200 was just too low. I thought my body was hitting starvation mode? When I first started to do 1500 I felt so much better. I have energy - lots of it. The scale started to move, not a lot, but it started to move. My shopping cart, fridge, cupboards are full of lean meats, protien, nuts, fresh fruits and veggies, EVOO, pepper, no salt, milk, yogurt, and cheeses. For the past several weeks of Lent, I've been keeping my promises of no fast food, no soda, no junk ...

And where has this all lead me?

No where ...

I'm feeling frustrated all the while I'm feeling good. I'm feeling heart broken, but I'm still happy. I'm still wearing the same jeans, but I'm on the last notch of my belt before I need a smaller one.

I know the scale isn't everything. I wish I took new "before" measurements of myself before the Lenten season started because I know I have lost an inch or two. I know I feel good and that's the reason to keep going. I just wish for once the scale would read what my body feels. It's like your job - you work hard to pay the bills, but the bills keep stacking up? Where's the relief? Where's the "bonus" you deserve?

But it's been three years since I started MFP, two years since my "issues" put back the 10 pounds I lost the first year. And it's still the 4 lbs yo-yo. Will I ever be able to see under 150? My goal is to be 125-130, but now at this point, I just want to be under 145!