My roller coaster

First pic is around August 2010 weight around 250



left pic is around June 2011 weight 205

Middle pic around May 2012 weight 265

Right Pic around July 2014 weight 215

I see a lot of threads where people just struggle for so long and yes it it very difficult to get to your goals. I cannot really find a roller coaster that explains the second hump being higher up then the first one. I will say my eating habits were something deeper than just binge eating. My alcohol intake through out those heavy years were very much a problem. I was self medicating with food and alcohol to cover up real issues that I needed to face. I made a choice that those issues must surface and all of them since I was 12. That day really sucked and I wanted to drink so bad just to cover it up. I left it out in a very long cry that ended with a phone call to someone I consider and best friend at midnight doing something I love which is playing halo 3. There has not been anything like the hurt I felt that day and I knew that everything would be ok. I now do not bottle up feelings anymore. I talked more with my brother and my cousin I live with which is awesome. We are a closer family then we ever been.

I will post two more photos maybe three more.

Next pic will be at 200 which is a milestone to getting smaller than I was when I was 11-12 years old.

Pic after is at my weight goal of 10% body fat. Depending on how my chest looks then I will have to make a choice of a very slow deficit or time to bulk up for weight lifting goal.

Final pic will be at my fitness goals.

The one tip I will give to MFP family is if you are feeling down and negative let it out. It might hurt and more likely will hurt but it does help IMO.