NEWB, LOVE the online support

LOVING this site... was looking for a way to do something like weight watchers, but free, I'm cheap like that....I wanted to be able to track my intake/exercise and not pay a bundle. I wasn't motivated enough to pay for it.. I'm unmotivated, I LOVE to eat for the taste and enjoyment, and I love to cook as well, so this is going to be a challenge, re-evaluating my eating habits, cooking better. I need to change my ways. I have at least 60lb to lose and up until a week ago, I was at the highest I've ever been, and I'm so ashamed of myself. I am working towards my sandan, first degree black belt in karate. I've been there two years and I'm on track for black belt next spring, I would like to be down a couple/3 uniform sizes by then, so I can do the focus test in just my tank top and pants (standard) and not be jiggling all over the place like a bowl of Jell-o. I am at the dojo 3 days a week, for a total of 4.5 hours, and over the last two years, I have noticed significant endurance/stamina and muscle improvement, but I am still fat; it's a nice low-impact workout, but my eating habits are still awful, so that needs to change, and I need to get back on my treadmill. I LOATHE 'diets' I think they are foul, full of empty promises and false hopes. What I really need to do is just buck up, and commit to the change! I won't give up sugar, I just won't, I won't deprive myself of something I love so much, but I need to re-learn self control and moderation. That's the biggest thing in this whole equation, my own self control.

So thanks for being here, this place is great, and I think it's just what I need to get motivated...