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suzuri
suzuri Posts: 2
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I signed up long before these forums came along but I haven't been here much. When I came back here, I was 177 pounds. Now I'm at 195 and I cry myself to sleep every night. I've had a lot of health issues that caused the weight gain and two specialists have been berating me about my weight for the past 3 weeks. I've tried everything to lose as much weight as possible for the next visit, but I end up getting sicker and they get even more agitated with me.

I'm back now because I'm frustrated. I feel so worthless. I don't have the money to do everything they ask me. I feel like throwing everything out of the fridge and pantry and not buy anything. I feel like I have to stop eating to lose the weight. I don't know what to do anymore. I need help. I want them to stop bullying me. I need to lose the weight so they will leave me alone.

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  • Annr
    Annr Posts: 2,765 Member
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    breathe. We are our worst critics. Gather your feet back under you again. You can do this. So now you say...those are just words, but there is control in them. I have to lose about 60 lbs to be about 198. Still seems like alot of weight. All I can do is live an honest life, surround myself with positive people, log my food down so I stay accountable, THAT is what gives me power, and self esteem. So you buy food that fuels you, move and do things that makes you smile. I used to be addicted to Facebook, and all my self esteem came from what people told me. I have to make my own magic, and you have make that step to what you want to achieve.
  • Annr
    Annr Posts: 2,765 Member
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    as my son says..."Mom there is no TRY only DO.... "Yoda speak from Star Wars.. :smiley: "
  • RllyGudTweetr
    RllyGudTweetr Posts: 2,019 Member
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    Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better. - Samuel Beckett
  • melaniecheeks
    melaniecheeks Posts: 6,349 Member
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    What do you need money for?
  • suzuri
    suzuri Posts: 2
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    @melaniecheeks I need the money to do the weight loss programs the specialists (the doctors) recommend. My insurance won't pay for it because I'm not a diabetic. I have spent $200 on MWL (the sign up fee) 5 years ago and got sick within the 2nd week. I couldn't handle their extreme 2 week fast.

    @Annr Thanks. It's much harder when you hear those same words coming from the people you're suppose to trust. I just got berated again about my weight today. I've lost what was left of my appetite.
  • Annr
    Annr Posts: 2,765 Member
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    you have the power to set people straight....don't settle for their berating!
  • PHXBlondie
    PHXBlondie Posts: 26 Member
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    I'm in a career where I have to stand up for myself and my clients every single day. It's exhausting some days. So, I understand to some extent what you're going through. However, the people who are berating you are people you have hired to help you. You didn't hire them to berate you. I know it can be intimidating to stand up for yourself against people who seem more educated or more [fill in the blank] than you are, but it's something you have to do. Once you put your foot down with these people and calmly explain to them that you are the customer and you are not paying them to be mean and insensitive to you. If they are saying these things out of concern for you, that's fine - but they need to find a better way to say what they feel they need to say. Let them know in no uncertain terms that if their behavior continues that you will take your business elsewhere. No need to shout or curse. But, you have to establish a boundary or these folks will think it's okay to continue to treat you this way. Best of luck to you. I know it's not easy, but the freedom you will feel after confronting your bullies will be so rewarding and will cause your confidence to soar again. :smiley:

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