Finally coming to terms with being overweight and the struggles that come with it.

First off, My name is Michelle and I am a Junior in college studying Art Education. I find comfort in food. I stress eat. I just like to eat. Gaining weight for me is not easy. I have never been over 200 pounds. Ive also never been really thin. In high school I was always about 150 pounds. Then my depression started to get really bad. I finally told my parents and got on the medication I needed. Then I started gaining weight. My boyfriend has been in South Dakota for over a year now, and I have not seen him in a year. I am now 180 pounds. Which does not seem like much, but each pound shows. The only person who have seen my stomach since i have gained weight is my best friend, and it was when we were drinking. My Boyfriend is coming to visit in a month. I know he loves me and my body, he tells me all the time. But im so irrationally scared of showing him my body. And the stress makes me eat more. I just wanted to put this out there. Because today is the day I finally start my hard journey to be happy with the way I look.