I feel like I'm loosing control

I know the feeling Brie...once you start your body constantly craves the sweet and salty. You just have to try and replace those snacks one at a time with something healthy don't try to go cold turkey. After awhile your body will not even crave it any longer. Good Luck!

Many of us have been in your shoes! There are a lot of ways to manage these problems, and the only thing to do is to keep working to find what works for you. When you're deep in the food, it seems impossible to break free, but you can do it. I agree with Cortelli. And I would also add that getting proper support is a good idea. Many of my MFP friends are working the program hard, with the goal of staying in the calorie range. Watching others moderate provides an inspiration to do the same. Don't give up! You CAN do it.

It's very hard when all the bad habits are fully ingrained. I found it exceptionally difficult for around 6 years of trying to diet, and not getting the better of these habits but then I fully committed my life to health.

Now when I want to binge on junk - which is less often after 14 months of healthy eating - I say "I'm hungry, my body is craving the loveliness and comfort of food". I throw a chicken thigh in the pan, lean bacon, onion, sage, carrots. I let that sizzle for a bit and then chuck in water and Puy lentils. 15 mins and it's done. I then grate 30 g of mature cheddar cheese into that and cut myself a good slice of brown bread, with butter. I have a huge bowl and it honestly feels like a binge. If I'm still hungry after that and wanting sugar I go to the local shop and get 100cal chocolate bar - just one. I never have chocolate or cakes in the house as I wouldn't be able to control myself around those foods.

Fill your cupboards and fridge with seasonings and spices and pulses, lean meat, fruit, low cal yoghurt, eggs, cherry tomatoes. You can binge on these things and do a lot less damage. Batch cook so you have things like healthy chilli con carne there for these times. You can do this - it just takes time to change your patterns.

BrieElyse2015 wrote: »

i can't stop eating junk no matter how hard I try, it's driving me nuts and making me so depressed

I eat junk food & fast food and fit it into my calorie goals. Maybe further down the road I will be able to "give it up", who knows? I doubt it though, I am almost 50.

As I read your food diary, you are either not eating enough calories or not logging your food.

You need 1200 minimum for basic life function. I would tell you to start at a higher calorie goal and eat food with protein.

You have to figure out how to balance yourself first with a proper diet. It takes time to get yourself right.

A few brief comments from a different point of view: and you may know this, but if it is helpful:

For many of us binging on certain foods isn't at all about the food itself, but our using the food as a response mechanism. "Stress Eating", "Emotional eating"... whatever term you want... While a good mental discipline is important, and having grace enough for yourself when you fall down is also important, I find it key to try to figure out what is driving the feelings that is driving the eating.

Are there people who trigger you? Emotional responses to situations? If you do begin to identify that your challenge isn't so much that that you love (insert your food choice here), but somehow it "makes you feel better"... then maybe this is something you may want to consider. Many people have learned to take the emotion or stress out in the gym... but you need to find what works for you....