Looking for support

I am currently in college and I noticed I'm either constantly eating or eating nothing. I went to the doctor recently and found out I am at my heaviest. I was crushed because I thought I was about 15lbs less than that. I bought new pants and they felt snug and thought it was water weight. So hearing that I gained 15lbs made me want to cry. Now I'm looking to turn it around and lose about 120lbs. However, I need some support because I'm not surrounded by the most motivational people. My boyfriend is probably my best cheerleader but he'll love me at any size. He just prefers to love me as a healthier me. So if anyone would like to email me to help get each other motivated let me know.