Too big to leave the house and exercise

kitkat940 wrote: »

Hello all,

Do anyone else feel self conscious when out in public? Although I am well aware that most people are concerned with what's going on in their own lives I can't help but wonder if they look at me and think "what a cow". Same goes for the gym. I am there most days and am by far the biggest one there!

My name is Kimberly and get it and this is why
About 10 years ago I lost 80 pounds and let me tell you I gained friends , they all wanted to be around me , given me complaments , going as fare as saving wow you look like a module
And I'm thinking wow isn't life fun and given me respect all things that make me feel good and I was pretty upset inside , thinking how shift it is how people treat you fat or thin
But never said a word and now I can sat about 2 years after my weight loss , it all came back and like I'm twice the size I was before I lost , lost all friends , my life went down hill , and I just now joined a gym and have went once because I feel ever person is looking at me judging me , I want to go into the pool but afraid too , I do not go into stores or anywhere , my husband goes in for me , doctors I'm a reck I have an anxiety disorder now
, I get horrible thoughts in my head about ending my life because of how if feel , because I'm so torchered inside but I would never do it because I believe I'd be punished in the after life .
But anyways I'm trying to change how I feel and trying to just count my calories on this site , I have tried and then go over my limits and give up .
So believe I understand how you feeling inside yourself , I hope you over come the feeling , and see things better or at least take a day at a time ,

Kitkat, Don't feel that way. You'll be surprised at how people are impressed seeing big people working out at the gym. People will look at you but they are all thinking different things. What they are thinking should not be your main focus. Completing your workout is more important.

Anyone judging someone while they exercise is a turd. Go you good thing!!!

dakotababy wrote: »

Honestly, when I see someone working out outside - anyone, regardless of the size, I feel like praising them. It makes being outside so much nicer when people are outside doing stuff.

Unfortunately, I have read many posts on MFP of people sharing their horrifying experiences of when they go walking around their neighbourhood, some punk yells out their window as they drive by to make a nasty comment.

There will always be punks in this world. You can not allow the fact that they *MIGHT* drive by while you are working out impact how you live your life. Yes it might happen, no the comment will not kill you.

If it is causing severe anxiety, I would recommend finding a program to do at home. I would recommend finding a DVD set you love, so you can do it rain-or-shine and it is excuse proof. Lose some of the weight, get some confidence, and when you are ready - go out and show the world what you are made of.

I also feel like praising anyone who is working out, no matter their size.

I also know that punks won't stop yelling out car windows when you lose weight. At least not if you are female. I don't consider it a compliment, either. It's startling and somewhat intimidating, and I suspect that is the intent in many cases. There are a lot of bullies in the world who are miserable people seeking company. Don't let them make you a prisoner in your house!