SBF, Reboot Boogaloo, May 9th

yoginimary
yoginimary Posts: 6,789 Member
edited September 2024 in Fitness and Exercise
Howdy peebs!

Hope everyone is doing well.

Playing in the water was more fun than I remember. It was nice that we didn't have to worry about being sunburned, as the pool was indoor. I walked around some yesterday as well but didn't get any formal exercise in.

Today, I'm teaching two classes. So after I get my own practice in (either a class or at home) and a walk, that should pretty much take up my day.

I'm still working on knowing when to stop eating. I think I'm getting better at it.

Day of exercise, boogaloo.

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  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    Good morning,

    Mary, swimming sounds good right now. I wonder when my friend's apartment pool opens. :wink: I need to go buy a small pool for Alex to play in in the backyard pretty soon. He's already asking about it.

    V, I liked your blog. I can relate, and the poor planning issue is a big one for me. The two days before it's time to go to the store again (once a week) are difficult because I often run out of food. Another big one for me is that I LOVE to eat out, and I don't like to get salads when I eat out. I could just make a salad at home for that matter. At least I am splitting meals with Steve a lot more often. That helps. Chips and salsa at my favorite Mexican food place, and French Fries at Red Robin are my weak spots.
    Oh and V, what day is your appointment with your GP? I am really curious about it how it will go!
    I am still sick but not feeling quite as bad. It also helps that my kitchen is still clean and the rest of the house is still mostly clean! I just need to do some picking up and finish laundry! I hope I can keep it like this. It's so much easier to deal with.
    I had a high cal/carb breakfast (muffins. hey, they included veggies!), so I will need to watch it the rest of the day. Protein is the plan. I will log my food today (wondering if I should try to do this all at once for the day or just log it as I go), work out (hopefully C25K and upper body taebo), get Alex through the last few pages of his school work (we will still be working on things, more fun things, throughout the summer, but his books are officially done), take him to tumbling class, get more organizing done, and I think that's it.
    I am still feeling low energy and even weak in my legs. I don't know if that's from being sick and not working out consistently or if I need something else like adrenal support. I am going to talk to my doctor about it. I am suppose to have more blood work done later this week or early next.
    Alex is reading my post, literally. Yes, he can read most of this. He's a smart cookie. Spelling words in front of him so he won't understand what we are saying went away at about three years old. :laugh:

    Getting back on track...I hope! boogaloo!
    MM
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Happy new week, pebbs!

    Today's plans: my three part plan from the blog, including accepting the fact that a workout wasn't in the cards this a.m. I ended up doing both Zumba and a long walk yesterday, so that may have been pushing. I also was up from 3 am to 8 am, and just woke up. Bad sleeping, ugh. MM, I haven't been forbidding any foods, but when it comes to fries (a favorite of mine),or any naughty-type food, I've been restricting to a sensible portion. The problem is that what a restaurant brings you is like three or four portions. My husband and I always share now. It's still not perfect, but small victories.

    Other plans: eating food that's in the house, typing up a symptom timeline for the new GP (under the advice of a good friend who is a nurse). The appointment is tomorrow, and I am nervous/excited. A new doc is always a pretty scary experience for me, even if they come highly recommended. Also, chapter work. This has been tricky with the stress/pain levels, but I think it's important to keep going, even at a reduced pace.

    Also, I double checked my MRI order yesterday, and I'm going Friday. This Friday. The 13th.:noway: I laughed for like ten minutes, and I am grateful I am not superstitious.

    Forward like a turtle, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    V, thinking about you today! :flowerforyou:

    Mary, is there rain in the forecast yet? We have a chance tonight through Thursday. Hope you get some too!

    I really don't have much to say today. :tongue: I did an hour of taebo yesterday and got the house straightened up. I actually had time to play some games with Alex because I didn't have to worry about the house being a disaster because it's not. :happy: Today I will be gone on my Tuesday errands most of the day. I'm not sure what I'm going to do this afternoon. Maybe 30 day Shred or taebo again. I hope to do something. Logging food and drinking lots of water are my goals for the day.
    Russian holidays are over so now maybe we will hear something. :smile:
    Putting forth an effort boogaloo!
    MM
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Hope everyone gets news and rain according to their needs and desires! Great job on the workouts, everyone. I miss mine somedays. Came very close to a binge last night, but once again, portion control prevailed. I ordered pizza (whole grain crust FTW!) because I had no food, no husband at home to be the hands and was out of energy. I reached for a fourth piece and thought "you'll feel sick if you eat that." And wrapped the rest up. Felt like a victory for awareness.

    Just a short check in this a.m. I'll report back after the doc. I'm as organized/prepared as I can be. Hope she doesn't assume I'm just a weird anal person.:laugh: Or, at least that she appreciates that about me.:tongue:

    Goal is to walk home from the doc if the rain/my anxiety holds off.

    Nervous, but hopeful boogaloo.:flowerforyou:
  • yoginimary
    yoginimary Posts: 6,789 Member
    Good luck with the new doctor, V.

    Hope for good news, MM.

    I'm hoping we get some of this rain. It's August dry out there. We usually get a lot of rain in April and May - this is just crazy. I had a minor success yesterday - did not finish the portion of alfredo I made for myself. I think I'm finally learning when to stop.

    Today - walk this morning, yoga this afternoon.

    Learning when to stop, boogaloo.
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Well, pebbs, the new doc is seven different kinds of awesome.:drinker:

    If you had my old doc at one end of a spectrum, she would be at the other end. Spent a full hour talking to me, asking about medical history, reading my timeline, asking questions about what meds had worked for me in the past, etc.

    Gave me some new prescriptions, is referring me to a specialist in pain management and fibromyalgia, and is sending me for a full fasting bloodwork/urinalysis panel. She's not sure what the stupid hands/arms issue is, but says that it's not out of the realm of fibro, which current research is showing is a progressive disease. It also could be nerve damage from long standing muscle spasms in my neck and shoulders. (that's one aspect of the thoracic outlet syndrome thing in that article, Mary) To end those spasms, I am now on muscle relaxants, so very floppy right now.

    Thanks for all the prayers/good vibes.:heart: Bloodwork Thursday a.m., and then just the MRI, which will be easy compared to the new doc anxiety.:tongue: I am good with machines, and acupuncture has cured my fear of needles.:laugh:

    Hey, CP . . . how's your pain doing?
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    Yay V! I sure hope all this helps you! So glad you have a doctor that's listening to you now and trying to get to the root of the problems!

    I did C25K week 3 day one. I was cheering myself on during the 3 minute runs. Man am I out of shape! Then I did 35 minutes of taebo. Made bad choices for lunch so I needed a good work out. Now I'm worn out, but I did it!

    Happy for my Pebbs!
    MM
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    I don't like posting after myself.

    It's rainy today. :smile: Hope you get some too Mary!

    Goals today: keep up on house work, log food, try to get some exercise later (maybe 30 Day Shred), and meeting with a friend this morning/lunch. She's almost 8 months pregnant and having marital problems and has two small boys. She's got a lot on her plate right now. :frown: I don't like to see my close friends going through such rough times. I also need to make a grocery list today and do a better job than I did last week. Debating on going gluten free again for awhile.
    I rediscovered pumpkin seeds yesterday. I haven't had them since I was a kid. I noticed they are a good source of protein so I bought some. They actually aren't too bad. So now I have another protein snack! :happy: Although I haven't been doing so great on the "eating every two hours" diet. I forget to eat and then I'm starving by lunch time. I'm going to work on getting back to that today because it was working to help me feel more level and kept me from pigging out at meals.
    That's it for today!

    Rain! Boogaloo!
    MM
  • yoginimary
    yoginimary Posts: 6,789 Member
    Glad you like your new GP, V.

    I hope we get some rain too. We got a drizzle yesterday.

    Today: double yoga and who knows. Depends on the rain. Should get together with a friend this afternoon, but I haven't heard from her yet - and we may go for a walk, we usually do.

    I'm still doing well on the figuring out when full - though I went over yesterday because of some "almond joy" gelato - it is my favorite and it was available. Gelato may happen again on Friday. My in-laws are coming in this weekend - so there will be lots of eating going on.

    Rain dance, boogaloo.
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    MM, may I humbly suggest setting a timer? I'm currently living my whole life by timers. I know it sounds crazy, but after doing it for a while, then you'll train yourself and it becomes habit.

    I just finished the 20 minute Zumba dvd. I was sort of thinking "I feel like I can't make it all the way through dance class. . .but that feels sort of like a bummer", and then I remembered that I owned that DVD. Behold, an actual compromise/"good enough" workout from V! Small victories.

    Slept amazingly due to new meds. Today's goals/intentions are walking home from the subway after therapy, and then if my energy is holding up trying to draft an intro and conclusion for the chapter. If I can do that, then I have successfully reached my goal of getting a first draft finished before my NYC trip. (actually, if I can get two more paragraphs written by this time next week. . .hooray!) If my hands are too weird for writing, I have plenty of books that I'm trying to incorporate back-up quotes from to read through. I got rid of four shelves worth of books a few months ago. I'm now practically full again. I've concluded I just need a bigger apartment for all my books. Or more of the books I need need to be available as ebooks.:tongue:

    Small victories of good enough, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:
  • cp005e
    cp005e Posts: 1,495 Member
    Man, I can't believe how rarely I check in these days. I look up and half the week is gone! MM, I like pumpkin seeds too. I hope you get good news soon. Mary, crossing my fingers for rain - my parents were in Texas last week and they mentioned the fires. V, I'm so glad to hear about your new doc. It is so hard when you are dealing with somebody who doesn't seem to listen or take you seriously.

    Speaking of which... nah, my doc is OK. :tongue: She's just very slow and methodical. I haven't had any major 'jolts' since last Tuesday, but I'm still having a combination of twinges, and something new - a burning/prickly feeling, now in both legs and over a wider area. So, called my doc back this morning, but she won't be able to see me until next week. She did call me in a prescription that is used off-label to treat nerve pain as well as being a sleep aid (though it's actually a tricyclic antidepressant). Apparently it will knock me out, which I am looking forward to after last night's burn fest (it kinda feels like when you have a really bad sunburn - except under the skin), but I guess I'm going to have to suck it for another night because she didn't recommend taking it for the first time on a 'school night' :laugh:. I'm taking Friday off, though, so tomorrow will do. Personally, I am still thinking that I'm probably looking at a herniated disc or something, but she's going slow and wants to run a bunch of blood work next week (apparently some vitamin deficiencies could cause tingling? I am skeptical that's it, since my diet hasn't changed much). Oh, and somebody's going to come evaluate my workspace next week for ergonomics.

    So, I'm not exercising at all, although I am getting a lot more steps in than I normally would, due to putting a timer (yep, V!) on my computer at work to tell me to get up every half hour. And, thanks to the Blackberry MFP app, I have been using that time to log my food while I pace around. It's a lot harder to stay under my calories when I'm not exercising, but, considering I self-medicated my pain with a box of cookies on Saturday, I'm probably due. I'll admit, last week's health drama sent me right over the cliff in terms of reasonable eating habits. It started with, "OK, I am going to let myself have a donut from the place I really like because I am stressed and scared and want comfort," and ended up with aforementioned box of probably 20 shortbread cookies. :ohwell: I've been logging since Monday and am doing fine so far. I really don't like doing it, but I think it's the only thing that's going to keep me from having to buy a whole new wardrobe at this point.

    Weekly novel, boogaloo!
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Morning pebbs,
    Up semi-early to go get bloodwork before coffee.

    Then, it's yoga and a walk home if the rain doesn't come. As I was warned they might, the meds are making me pretty sleepy as I get used to them, especially the muscle relaxant (which I won't be taking as often once the muscles stop spasming). For now, I'm grateful for the sleep. Also, I realize when I wake up that it's been a very long time since I've had refreshing sleep.

    Other than that, it's more background reading for the chapter, looking at New York gallery and museum listings and probably more napping. Essentially, I'm working on resting up for the trip now. (as much as I love New York, it is not a restful place, so I'm trying to make sure I'm fully charged for it).

    Resting, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    CP, hope you get some answers soon for the craziness going on in your body. Yes, vitamin deficiencies can cause weird things like that to happen. I have a friend who basically had no vitamin D in her body and what she did get was not being converted (D2 to D3?). She had body spasms and pains etc. It was pretty bad. She is doing better now, though it's still low. I've been amazed at the weirdness of sicknesses lately. Maybe they aren't that odd but it just is in my little circle. And good for you logging your food again.

    V, hope you have a good day and can stay awake when you need to and sleep when you can. :wink:

    I did the 30 Day Shred yesterday and I was dripping sweat. My calves are sore this morning. I guess I need to change things up a bit. Today is grocery shopping, do some more organizing on the house (Steve noticed last night that it's cleaner :happy: ), get a work out done, and spend time with Alex.
    I have noticed my eating problems come at night, and some times after lunch. I have such a sweet tooth. This is something I must work on.

    No sweets boogaloo!
    MM
  • yoginimary
    yoginimary Posts: 6,789 Member
    So do y'all think MM and I have the same cat? Mine looks a bit skinnier these days.

    Yes, CP, you should check in more often.

    A week from today, V will be 40. Happy early birthday.

    It is raining a bit. Looks like the big one is coming though. I hope the brunt of it comes before I go to work, subbing for someone. I was getting worried we wouldn't get any - heard thunder two nights in a row, but no rain. Looks like there are two tornado warnings already with this storm - so I don't want rain that badly.

    Today - walk and yoga.

    Rain good, but no tornadoes please, boogaloo.
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    :yawn: Morning, Pebbs,

    Oh, did I forget to mention that my MRI was at 6 am? I'm up early for that. I guess snake brain is a little bit nervous about it, but will be glad to be done with it. Also, breakfast afterwards.

    Other than that, just reading/some analysis for the chapter and rest. I'm getting really good at rest. I am amazed at how much I've been sleeping, but also amazed at how different the sleep feels, especially when I wake up from it. (as in, I feel like I actually slept).

    I'm trying to do radical acts of self care in a countdown to birthday week. Yesterday, it was yoga, followed by lunch at one of my favorite restaurants, followed by a hot bath in the afternoon, followed by a nap. Pure luxury. Not sure how I'll top it.:wink:

    Countdown to forty,:noway: boogaloo.:flowerforyou:
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    V, glad you are getting some good sleep! Send some this way! Hope your MRI goes well and smoothly today!

    I am a total crankball this morning so I will keep to the point. I could really go off but I know it's just hormones. Yes, lady time is on its way...finally. Or at least I think it's coming. Who knows?
    I did not stay off sweets yesterday. I had gluten free cookies last night. :blushing: I have no self control when girl time comes. Yesterday was also a cooking disaster for the most part and I forgot potatoes for the potato salad I was going to make. Hello? Is my brain on? :laugh: But I did do an hour of Taebo.
    Today: go to store and get said potatoes, watch my friend's boys for a couple of hours (Hopefully a walk to the park for lunch), and hopefully a work out. Not sure what kind of exercise. Depends on how I am feeling physically by afternoon. Steve may also get off work early. There's even a possibility we may go camping tonight. Yep, we're spontaneous some times.
    Steve's favorite California restaurant In-N-Out just opened in the DFW area, so we may try that out. He said, "It's just a burger, but in California, it's an experience." I guess he's not expecting that here. I've never been to CA or In/Out so it works for me! :laugh:

    Putting all feelings aside boogaloo.
    MM
  • yoginimary
    yoginimary Posts: 6,789 Member
    I heard about the In-N-Out all they way down here.

    I'm currently playing "get my money back" with FTD. What happened to this company? They've completely gone down hill as far as customer service. They also do one of my least favorite things - ask you to place your order on the web, but then have no way to get in touch with them via email, unless you fill out one of their forms. Ugh. I'm getting ready to go to BBB online.

    Anyhoo, it's amazing how little stuff can get you all in a tizzy. I need some exercise. I have yoga tonight - yeah! I have to leave early as my in-laws are coming down. Oh, better clean the house.

    Tizzy, boogaloo.
  • cp005e
    cp005e Posts: 1,495 Member
    Hey everybody! V, hope your MRI went well. Allow me to keep you company with the wacky health issues. :laugh: Mary, it does look like you and MM have the same cat! How funny.

    I took today off to recuperate (and use some comp time). But, I'm not quite sure what to do with myself! Whatever it is can't involve sitting for more than a half hour. :grumble: At least it is a nice day. Maybe I'll go to the office supply store and look for lumbar supports. :tongue: I bought a back brace the other when I was at the pharmacy, and after sleeping with it the night before, I was feeling pretty good yesterday until mid-afternoon... then I started having twinges again. Maybe I had it on too tight? I also took the new meds for the first time last night. I was a little bit disappointed that they didn't totally knock me out, but, I do think they are helping with the pain, etc - so I'll take it. I am weirdly impervious/insensitive to most medications, it seems. It means I don't usually have crazy side effects, which is good, but it also seems like sometimes nothing affects me. MM, that's interesting about your friend with the vitamin deficiency. My appointment for the blood work isn't until Wednesday, so I probably won't hear anything until next Friday at the earliest. I am still thinking it is something with my back since the brace seemed to help my symptoms.

    Slow strolls, boogaloo.
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    I'll be praying for you CP as you wait for your test results! Hope you have a relaxing day!

    My plans changed today, which actually made me less grouchy, although I did feel bad for feeling relieved. I don't have to watch my friend's boys this morning. Why do I want more kids (especially through adoption!) if I just don't want to watch them? :laugh: Steve also has to work probably all day (which means over time pay since he hit OT at 10 am this morning. Whoo hoo!) and that means I can get a work out in without him watching. :wink:

    Such a baby boogaloo.
    MM
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    Up way too early for a Saturday morning. I think Steve is excited. lol. We're going camping at a lake. It's going to be chilly tonight (51*), but the day time high is 74* so it's going to be perfect! I hope to get some walking in, but last night my knee was bothering me. I'm still cranky. I wish I'd get over this. I hear it's a choice. Some times I'm not so sure about that. Crankiness was my motivation to get through my work out yesterday. Where can I put my focus today?
    I got a call yesterday from a friend who is needing a kidney biopsy done in Minnesota (Mayo Clinic) and has asked us to watch their 4 year old boy. Okay, I think God is trying to prepare me for having a second child in the house. I am nervous about it but it will be good for all of us. Maybe not in the short term. Speaking of the adoption, we heard from Olga and they are trying to get the dad's signature on the papers but he lives in another city so they had to send the papers to the officials of that city. She said if it gets stuck then Andrei will go there to get things moving again.
    Then the first part of June, assuming we aren't in Russia, my 16 year old brother is coming to stay with us while my mom goes on a mission trip. It's going to be a crazy few weeks. I just got back into working out and I'm afraid how that's going to change over the next few weeks. I may have to rearrange my schedule and have quiet time in the afternoon and work out first thing. It has it's advantages and disadvantages.

    Bringing lots of blankets boogaloo!
    MM
  • yoginimary
    yoginimary Posts: 6,789 Member
    Remember the days when 51 was crisp (in the winter it's walking weather, in the summer it's cold, funny that)? have fun camping.

    With the in-laws in town, we'll be eating lots. Had a good dinner at my parents house last night. Today we are going out for lunch and dinner. I hope to get a lot of walking in. I'm doing yoga this morning before we get together.
    I wish I could have stayed for the entire group practice yesterday, though they went beyond my level. It was great to watch. I even got to share something I learned at the latest workshop (no one else had been to that workshop) - and all the big kids were interested in what I was doing. It was gratifying, if slightly nerve racking.

    I hit 10,000 miles recently on my steps chart. 23,000,000 steps - since 2005. I put in approximately 550 miles every 8 weeks.

    Keep the bites small and the steps large, boogaloo.
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Morning, pebbs. . .

    Awesome on the walking, Mary. And MM that news sounds promising. I hope they figure out your pain soon, CP. . .and your meds help to alleviate the pain in the meantime.

    Today is gray and gloomy outside. I don't have much planned in the way of activity, but I do need to clean (having people over tomorrow) and I need to go shopping, so there will be some walking. My doctor referred me to this fibro website and it had an "activity" section. It instructed me to try to get "light" or "moderate" activity every day. Sample "light" activity: "baking". Sample "moderate" activity: "slow walking". Things I consider activity: dancing, biking, cardio, etc. . .nowhere on the lists. It's a puzzle. I appreciate the idea that some activity is better than no activity, and right now there are some days when "baking" does feel like a workout to me, but I hate the idea of telling people that they pretty much can't workout again, ever. It's a slippery slope, something I've heard be called "the subtle prejudice of low expectations". Maybe it's just the "don't tell me what to do!" rebel streak in me. For now, I'm rebelling by sleeping 13 hours a day and recharging to full power, and waiting to see if I get some other mystery diagnosis. Then, the "light and moderate activity" chart had better watch out.:wink:

    Don't tell me what to do, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:
  • yoginimary
    yoginimary Posts: 6,789 Member
    Just got called for jury duty. Oh well. I've been called three other times and never served. I'm sure I'll moan about it when the time comes (May 31st).

    Today is beautiful! Cool and clear, high in the low 80s. Should be a great exercising day. I felt so good after my practice yesterday, I'm going to do the same sequence today. Other than that, I need to make breakfast muffins for husband or go see my old lady.

    Beautiful day, boogaloo!
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Morning,

    Mary, I love that your "cool" is my "warm". It's cold and rainy here. (would be your "freezing", 40 something). I feel pretty energetic today, so I'm going to try Zumba. It will be the first workout other than walking on the new cocktail of meds, so it might be interesting. The muscle relaxant makes me a bit woozy, but not too bad.

    Other than that, it's the vacuuming I didn't get to yesterday and having people over. Hands are considerably more useful today. But, I haven't been typing on my usual schedule, as I've been editing not writing. They do get tired easily, and I can't seem to keep them warm. Current goal is to respect my body's boundaries, but find the edge.

    Sunshine come back, please, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:
  • mechanicmom
    mechanicmom Posts: 5,700 Member
    Hi,
    We had a good trip. It was 48 early this morning but it really wasn't that cold during the night. It WAS cold sitting by the lake this morning though. You may have seen my post on FB about a triathlon being held at the park this morning. I thought about going out to watch but I hardly got any sleep. Our "neighbors" were drunk, playing country music loudly (I hate country. Hey, I'm not a native Texan!), and cussing like sailors, especially one of the women! I was so angry I couldn't sleep. So I kind of brought it on myself. Then, whatever was playing their music, went off every twenty minutes after they crashed! It was like a snooze alarm or something. We did get up to see the triathlon start and I am glad we did. It was neat. It was inspiring. I got some pictures on my phone that I need to put on FB. On the way home we stopped and ate at In-N-Out. It was a 45 minute wait to get seated (this is a fast food restaurant) and a 3 1/2 hour wait in the drive-thru! It was the craziest thing I have ever seen! There were police directing traffic for the drive thru! Unbelievable. But let me tell you, I thought it was worth it. Everything was good.
    It's amazing how quickly my mood changed from actually happy to P.O.ed. My friend who asked me to watch her boys on Friday and then got sick, so I "got out of it", asked me to watch them tomorrow. I'm sorry but I got mad. I do not know what is wrong with me but babysitting really makes me mad! Want to get on my bad side? Ask me to babysit! :laugh: I am really struggling right now with my hormones. I have been cramping and pmsing for two weeks straight and no period. It's really messing with my hormones! I am already stressed out about having to watch another friend's boy for ten days, and now I've been asked to do it again. My attitude is really wrong. I know what it is. I'm selfish. My world is about to be turned upside down for about a month and I'm not happy about it. And maybe after that month it will be changed forever with a girl coming home. I'm at the point of "What was I thinking?!" I don't want to do this anymore! I changed my mind. I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown because I just can't seem to handle it emotionally right now. I'm a mess. If I'd known the chaos of having my meds changed I think I would have thought twice about it. I also have friends and family calling/emailing and venting to me. It all just seems to much. I want to hide in a cave until all this passes. :frown:
    Vent over. Now for a new attitude. I really did have a good weekend.

    Dying to self boogaloo.
    MM
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