just wanna cry :O(

I just took a look at a couple days of your diary. First of all it looks like you are not eating enough. You have to eat your exercise calories. Especially if you are starving all the time. It also looks like you eat a fair bit of processed foods. Try and incorporate more fresh fruits and vegetables and lean meat. Make your oatmeal at home instead of buying the stuff at McDonalds, you'll get more bang for your buck.

Don't cry. Fight back.

I kind of have no choice for my breakfast. I hit the gym in the morning before work and I work in an industrial park and you do not want to drink the water here and all I have for cooking tools is a microwave. I do bring my lunch on occasion or pick up a salad or something fresh from the store.

Can you bring water from home in a resusable water bottle or a gallon jug? That way you could bring a pack of oatmeal to work and heat it up there. Healthier and saves some cash. Also, I always make more than what I need for dinner. I work from home but it allows my boyfriend to take his lunch most days. I have one of the take along dinner plates and I fix the plate as I am putting away leftovers. This also saves us some money and allows him to eat healthier.

Are you measuring inches?

Don't give up. Continue keeping track of your calories; even if you over eat. It takes a while for your body to acclimate to the new caloric restriction. Here's a tip that works for me. Chew gum. I find that it curbs my appetite and the actual act of 'mastication' plays a psychological trick on me, somehow *shrugs*... Also, ask yourself this question, "Are my weight loss goals too high?" What I mean is, are you looking to lose an unrealistic amt of weight so your caloric difference of what you would normally eat and 'MFPs' is so great that you feel like your starving. So you might want to re-evaluate. If that's the case take baby steps. When i first started on my path (before joining MFP) the 1st thing I did was eliminate juice from my diet. Not 100%. I only allow myself to have one 8oz cup of juice per day (P.S. measuring cups are my best friends) and water for the rest of the day. Then I started swapping white sugar for brown sugar, white bread for whole wheat. Another thing I do is buy my 'bird food' separate from the rest of my family's groceries. My family eats pretty healthy but if I am to achieve my weight loss goals there are certain meals that i make for my family (I'm West Indian) that I cannot eat. So, I take a bi-weekly pilgrimage to Trader Joe's & Whole Foods and buy items that I cannot get at my local market and no one is allowed to touch them. so while they're feasting on short ribs and macaroni pie (mac & cheese) I might have some, but not a lot, or eat 1-2 ribs and a package of stir-fry from 'the bird food' stash. Do I overeat? hell yeah! I still eat roti and Chinese food which come w/ no nutrition facts but guess what? I use that as little weekly or bi-weekly rewards for obeying MFP caloric intake...I say all of this to say DONT GIVE UP. Set realistic weight loss goals, stick to it and you will lose the weight. Good luck hun :bigsmile:

Please dont quit . Keep on thinking of the cruise you are going on ! That would be a good enough motivation for me to know that even though right now you may not be seeing results it will come !

McDonalds calories lack nutritional content. If you want to lose weight without feeling crappy about it, you need to find foods where you get a lot of nutritional goodness per calorie. This means stuff like vegetables, fish, salad, and NOT McWhatever which is full of salt, carbs, fat and little else. You don't need to scrap yummy foods altogether, but you do need to figure out a way to get some plate-filling meals for 300 calories. I eat 1200 per day over 5 meals, which almost always includes 3 big, full up, filling plates of food. I make sure to eat half a plate of veg or salad with almost every meal. Including breakfast.

For example...you had meat balls with pasta plus bread for 700 calories. My home-made equivalent is 350. Substitute non-meat meatballs, have half the pasta and make it wholewheat, scrap the bread (who really needs bread AND pasta in one meal?) for salad or put a load of extra veg in the pasta and you will have more food on your plate, feel just as full, get more nutrients and all for as little as half the calories.

You seem very committed to cutting calories but I think you need to reconsider where you are cutting them from. McDonalds, beer, popcorn, fudge etc are fine, but only if you are also getting all your vitamins, minerals, and properly balanced meals. Look at the proportion of calories coming from "junk" vs home cooked food, and see if you can reallocate your empty calories in a more useful way. Technically a calorie is a calorie however you eat it, but if you want good health and to feel good while you do this, you've got to plan things out carefully. I still drink alcohol, eat chocolate and crisps etc, but that is a very small proportion of my daily calories, maybe 1/6 most days.