On the wagon

Hey MFP community,

My name is Jan. I'm a 33-year-old male nursing student. I have a problem with eating. Pretty much my philosophy has been eat whatever I want whenever I want in whatever quantities I want. I'm about 5'10 and weigh 213 (undoubtedly mostly body fat). I have hypertension and pre-diabetes. My life is great, but my health sucks. I'm not proud of that.

I've been through a pretty violent cycle of stress eating + no exercise, combined with short periods of time in which I get "motivated" and change my habits...for awhile. Intuitively I *know* what it takes to get fit, but my brain tends to shut that down in favor of laziness. I am lazy. I will just go ahead and admit that right now.

My daughter (first kid) will be born in April. I want to see her grow up. I want to set a good example for her.

And I'm tired of feeling embarrassed without a shirt on!

I'm done with this awful cycle. I've said that before. But now it's about more than me. I'm trying to change my whole perspective on health. I want to change how I look at food and how I think about my body. I want to enjoy exercising rather than dreading it. I need to rewire my brain, and I know that it will take time and hard work.

So here I am. I'm ready for a change.

Thanks for reading.