Sing to me

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb
without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch
without your love darling
only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Bring Me to Life - Evanescence

"Leave A Scar"

It's not like I made my self a list
Of new and different ways to murder your heart
I'm just painting that's still wet,
If you touch me I'll be smeared
You'll be stained
Stained for the rest of your life

So turn around, walk away
Before you confuse the way we abuse each other
If you're not afraid of getting hurt
Then I'm not afraid of how much I hurt you

I'm well aware I'm a Danger to my self
Are you aware I'm a danger to others?
There's a crack in my soul
You thought was a smile

Whatever doesn't kill you...
Is gonna leave a scar
Whatever doesn't kill you...
It's gonna leave a scar
Leave a scar
Leave a scar
Whatever doesn't kill you, it's gonna leave a scar

I'm more like a silver bullet
And I'm like a gun, not easy to hold
I'm moving fast and if I stay inside your heart
I'm certain that this will be
The end of your life

So turn around, walk away
Before you confuse the way we abuse each other
If you're not afraid of getting hurt
Then I'm not afraid of how much I hurt you

I'm well aware I'm a Danger to my self
Are you aware I'm a danger to others?
There's a crack in my soul
You thought was a smile

Whatever doesn't kill you...
Is gonna leave a scar
Whatever doesn't kill you...
Is gonna leave a scar
Leave a scar
Leave a scar
Whatever doesn't kill you, it's gonna leave a scar

"Heaven" Bitter:Sweet

Everyone dreams about heaven
Nobody knows what to think
The truth is that I go to heaven
Every time you look at me

If I wait too long I may not say goodnight
Never knowing how or when I might just die

I'm yours
I'm yours
(Heaven can't wait)

Everyone dreams about something
Heaven can be anything
The truth is that my slice of heaven
Tastes better than my favorite drink

If I wait too long I may not say goodnight
If I take my time then maybe you will find

I'm yours (day breaks away)
I'm yours (no work, all play)
(Heaven can't wait)

Say what you will
I'm perfectly still
I'm sailing on a sea of sweet that's you

If I wait too long I may not say goodnight
If I take my time then maybe you will find

I'm yours (day breaks away)
I'm yours (no work, all play)
(Heaven can't wait)

I feel this is relevant to me lately, with all the effort I've been putting in to try and get my final papers in for college coursework. The week before last week, I came down with a fever (which appears to be due to walking pneumonia I picked up from my brother, as I'm still coughing like hell) during the worst time possible. I'd had plans and a schedule worked out for getting my three 10 page papers finished, but when I got sick I couldn't function for four days straight. I've been working my butt off this previous week to try and get them all finished, and I'm hoping that it hasn't been a lost cause, because I'll be turning them in tomorrow, while they were due Tuesday and Friday last week. Despite that my mom was asking why I was even bothering still with the first one when the grade for it dropped a letter per day after its due date on Tuesday, I decided I wanted to put my best effort into it with the given pressure, so that I can at least prove to myself I could do it. Today I finished the first two papers and have one more to go that is 8 pages, due tomorrow by 1 PM.

I feel like the lyrics from this song are kind of reflective of my efforts as of late (there's more to it than just this story but I'll spare you the drama there :yawn:). Basically, I'm giving things my best shot, regardless of whether I succeed or not. What've I got to lose aside from social life and sleep anyways? haha

"Last Chance" - Nicki Minaj ft. Natasha Bedingfield (good combination if I might say so )

I've only one chance, one bullet in the gun
This is my life, and I only got one, yeah
The safety's off and I put it on stun
Ohh stick 'em up, stick 'em up! (I'm ready to shoot!)


There's another one by the same artist during which I felt I could relate to the chorus. I've been feeling a bit vulnerable with where I am lately, and my boyfriend has been my anchor to keep me from falling apart. We couldn't so much as talk on Friday, our first year anniversary last week, and he's just been totally understanding of my predicament.

"Save Me" - Nicki Minaj

I drove for miles
Just to find
You and find myself
All these screams
All these voices
In my head
You gave me strength
Gave me hope
For a lifetime
I never was satisfied

[Chorus]
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up

I know that for some, rap isn't the most appealing music. Sometimes it isn't for me. I recommend checking out these two songs. The latter is actually not so much "rap" as you'd think coming from Nicki. I was happy to find she can also sing nicely

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Oooh, baby I've been flying...Mama, there ain't no denyin'
Oooh yeah, I've been flying, Mama ain't no denyin', no denyin'

All I see turns to brown, as the sun burns the ground
And my eyes fill with sand, as I scan this wasted land
Tryin' to find....Tryin' to find where I've been.

Oh, pilot of the storm that leaves no trace, like thoughts inside a dream
Heed the path that led me to that place, yellow desert stream
My Shangri-La beneath the summer moon, I will return again
Like the dust that lufts high in June, when moving through Kashmir.

SICK song, love it.