Back on track-looking for support!

my name is Paty. I'm 25 years old. I've always been a "chunkster." The overweight one. In my family being chunky was considered healthy. If you were skinny, you needed to eat more. I started getting dark rings around my neck and dark circles on my knees and elbows. I didn't see anything wrong with that. My problem was that at age 11 I was wearing a size 15. I started working out at age 16. I weighed 205 pounds. I worked out & lost about 15 pounds. I was so happy. Then I stopped working out and gained again. That's how I was, on and off for about 5 years. In 2011 my grandfather passed away, and I started eating like crazy. I went up to 225 pounds!!! I never saw that I gained all that weight until I started really paying attention to my pictures. I had a double chin, love handles & muffin tops. In 2013 I started using myfitnesspal and I dropped about 40 pounds. I weighed 167 pounds, the lightest I've ever been. I maintained myself there, well at 173-179 for a year. Until I went thru some hardships again, and started consoling myself with food. I'm back on this wagon and need help! I'm at 202 now