BeingKevin, an update.

Hello!

Some of you may remember me a little, some may not remember me at all, and most probably don’t give a damn, but I wanted to say hello to all of you who helped me so much as I began this new life over two and a half years ago. Many of you were a huge inspiration (both pals and MFP bloggers and posters) to me and I can never repay you for that, but I do thank all of you for it.

I have struggled a lot over the past year or so – both mentally and physically. I have found that as long as I am fine physically I am also fine mentally, but when issues arise physically I mentally fall apart. I wish I could tell you that I have no problems and life is easy after losing 200 pounds but it still a struggle at times. I am working on that. Maybe I will always be working on that.

I have had a few injuries that slowed me down, including one to my knee that stopped me from running and one to my shoulder that stopped me from swimming, both led me to a dark place filled with bad habits but eventually, thankfully, I saw the light again and went back to work. You would think that dark place would be gone by now but it is still there, watching and waiting, hoping for me to get close enough to pull me back in. It is a place I try to avoid at all costs but I do know it is there. I am afraid it always will be.

Despite the injuries, and mental struggles, I did reach the goals I set out to reach and created several new ones. I have finished both a Half and Full Marathon, as well as a Sprint Triathlon and I plan to finish my first Olympic and Half distance Triathlon (well Duathlon - Triathlon is out due to shoulder injury) as well as run my second Marathon yet this year, if my body will allow.

Although my weight is where it was when I left, hovering between 240 and 245, that is by design. I have decided to stop losing weight for a while and although I know one day I will try to lose another 20, or 40, I am satisfied with where I currently am. I don't know if that even makes sense to anybody, sometimes it doesn't make sense to me, but being on a constant calorie deficit for over two years combined with some intense training was wearing on me, so I decided to put it on hold for now.

I can do a lot of things I never dreamt of doing a couple years back and I wanted to update you on those things. I would be remiss if I didn’t tell you, however, that those things pale in comparison to the fact that I am actively participating in life instead of a spectator. I spend time every day being active with my best buddy, a now 7 year old boy who is my life, and for that alone every difficult day has been well worth it.

Always remember that life is so much more fun when you are living it.

Kevin