...I'm happier

So in the past year I have lost a total of about 30lbs or so, starting weight being 204 and current weight is 172lbs (it fluctuates a little). I'm 5'5 and so I want to get under 145lbs, my goal being around 135 or 140.

Anyways, the other day I washed old clothes from months ago that couldnt fit me for a good while. I tried them on and... they fit! All my shirts looked great, most of my dresses and pants were even too big, it was a good moment for me. And over the past few weeks I have realized, that I am so much happier with my body than I used to be. I was so stuck on a goal weight, thinking I could only look good or love myself at that certain weight, but now I am seeing that I was completely wrong. With the right clothes on, I love my body. I still want to loose around 20 pounds or more, but when I look in the mirror I dont hate what I see. I have rockin curves and a pretty nice butt if I do say so myself (haha). It has taken me years to finally accept myself, my body has always been my enemy and it was so hard for me to look and not shake my head in disappointment. But now I look and smile, I am not where I want to be but honestly, now I am okay with it. I still want to lose more belly fat and tone up a bit, work on being healthier, but man does it feel good to look in the mirror and feel sexy for once. I have so much more confidence too, it may sound cheesy but the hell with it, I dont walk anymore, I strut, with my head high and my shoulders up, I dont stand slouched and ashamed, I have my hands on my hips not afraid to show off what I love about my body the most, my figure/curves. And with guys, I used to hate my body so much I wouldnt so much as look at a guy let alone talk to one, but in the past 3 weeks I have made 2 new friends whom are girls and a new guy friend who seems interested, and I havent changed the way I act at all either, I guess I just finally realized that, I dont love myself, how can I expect someone else to? I sucked it up and now I am so much happier.

I wanted to share this with you guys because honestly, I am proud of myself. I havent done very good with my diet lately and I am working on it, but this is a huge breakthrough for me, and I wanted to share with you guys. I still havent reached my goal and I still plan on working to reach those goals, but now I dont have to obsess and think that when the scale hits that number my life will magically change. I finally love myself, and it feels great.