everyday question for me: what keep you going i would of qui

what keeps me going so many people ask EVERYDAY: i say:happy: (p.s some might find it well hard to choke down but this is what i use so remember that it my choice not yours)

1.i use to weigh 323 pounds

2. at one point i had to sit down in the shower to wash (i had a chair) because i could not hold myself up, washing my hair was
a job getting dress was horrible i would sweat.

3. i drove my car to check my mail

4. i rush though grocery shopping my backed hurt

5. i was single with no sex for three years ok (at the time im 20????) i met Ryan afterwards who played a big part in weight loss

6. i had no friends

7 my self-estem couldn't get any lower then a limbo champion

8. my knees hurt. im 20 years old and the doctors said knee therapy!!! i was the youngest one there

9. blood pressure up and down

10. i was killing myself with food

11. i wasn't living at all.

12. depression was eating me up!!.

13.. I cried every night before bed after a big box of eating a cake (you know the frozen ones in the freeze coconut was my fav) by myself and would order a pizza from papa johns and eat it ALL by myself with a ARBYS" big milk shake (those things are sadly huge)

14. broke from all the money i spent on food!!


NOW: My Do's 1. I stay strict always no excuses yes we have bad days but you not going to find happiness in a bowel of ice cream at the end of the day when i get home i took care of my temple that i was bless with. CALL A FRIEND dont stuff talk about it no matter how small or huge!

2. be honest admit you have to make sacrifices yes know it hard but so is being fat pick your card?

3. MY BIGGEST ONE I SEND LETTERS TO MYSELF FROM MY FORMER FAT SELF!!!! weird but it works it a reminder of my tears my hurt my pain i dont want to forget i have over 55 letters and i mail them to myself and my dad sends one out every couple months LOL.

My Rules: 1. it nobody biz what bus you take to get to goal

2. dont compare it all about you.

3 if you mess up make sure you got a plan to not do it again. no one can do it for you. having support is great but you are your
strongest rock your mirror not going to lie. neither is your heart. and well truth is the only person at the end you have to answer to is well YOU.