18 weeks to take back my life...

Well I'm so fed up with myself; since Xmas I've gained over 3st and am at the heaviest I've ever been (when not preggers). I spent the other night looking at old photos when I thought I was fat and now looking back I was perfectly healthy ... It makes me sick that I have done this to myself. So this is it ... I have 18 weeks until we go on our holiday of a lifetime to Florida and I need to get back to my healthy weight. It's a real struggle for me as I suffer from depression and binge eating disorder so I lose control so easily and then get caught in the vicious cycle of eating for comfort. But not today. One day and not a time. I'm committing myself to using MFP and I am also using some hypnosis apps to help me relax and refocus myself. I am going to consciously eat. I am going to be kind to myself. I am doing this, here and now!