negative rant

I think most of us that have overweight issues love to eat. It's the choices of food and quantitiy also. I'm down 134 pounds and I've gone from eating ice cream and chips, burgers, fries, and milkshakes to Vegetable, Fruits, Fat free ranch, sugar fee jello , sugar free cool whip, sugar fee jellos, sugar free twin pops. Quaker rice cakes, (chocolate flavor) peanuts, fat free chips, only 70 caloires per serving (I always have atleast 1.5 or 2 servings) Get my drift, even though I'm over eating sometimes the things I'm eating are way less calories than what I used too. Good Luck!! Drink plenty of water and occasionally I fix myself sugar free maragaritas!!

it takes a while to get good at this, and you seem really overwhelmed and stressed at the changes you know you need to make. Hang in there!
Did you eat breakfast or lunch? you have not put them in your diary, so i wasnt sure. Your body need fuel and sustenance.
I suggest:
drink some water.
put on some sneakers and go for a walk.
get out and clear your head.
come back and plan a healthy lunch and or dinner.
if you go over your cals, its ok! you are gonna get this and its going to be amazing!

My two cents... you want wine? Have wine. You want Pot stickers? Have them. If you feel like you have to live without something and you're going through things like this, you probably won't be able to keep it up and stick to your plan to lose weight.

I personally think the key is to deprive yourself of NOTHING. But learn about moderation in all things. You can't eat the entire bag of pot stickers. But you can have two or three. You can't drink the entire bottle of wine. But you can have a glass. And you track the calories and make sure you are within your daily goals. Maybe get a little extra exercise to make up for it.

You can't have those empty calories every day, you need to eat with nutrition in mind. But you CAN and MUST treat yourself once in a while. I have a couple of glasses of wine a week. If the kids have candy or whatever, if I feel a craving, I have some. I just make sure I don't over indulge or do it every day, and I try to exercise to make up for it.

Don't make your quest to lose weight into torture! Learn to have what you love in moderation.

unfortunately, there're no easy answers here. i struggle with the same thing every day. my problem has never been eating too much because i never feel full- it's always been eating too much because food makes me feel good like nothing else can. i always associate eating with positive memories- specifically, every kind of food that i shouldn't be eating. i eat when i'm bored, when i'm tired, when i'm stressed, when i'm anxious or depressed, and especially when i'm just plain pissed off. eating food that i like takes my mind off my problems for a little while. distractions sometimes help, sites like these sometimes help, writing in a journal sometimes helps, but sometimes it's just not enough, and in the end, if things are bad enough, and you feel as if you can't fight it on your own, you may need to seek professional help, and let me clarify here and now that there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. you are not alone in this.

You poor thing... sounds like a stressful day.

Like the others are saying you can still have good things, and journaling would be a great idea.
You are eating because you are emotional, and there are many people like that, my mother was one of them. You can do this you just need to distract yourself from food and find something else that will help you express your feelings!

Do you have people around you that support you trying to lose weight?

right there with you. so many over weight ppl use food as a fix. it really is possible to be addicted to food just as well as anything. just like the alcholic who drinks to be numb, we eat for our personal reasons. A lot of times I enduldge due to depression and empty feelings. sometimes I think that I am doomed to be unhappy for the rest of my life. I have a lot of stress in my life at the moment. so much of it isnt necessary.The past 2 months I have stopped making the right choices. Eating like crazy, which just made things worst because then I felt guilty about what i alouded myself to put into my mouth.
As someone esle said cook yourself one portion and enjoy them. If you think that one serving will lead to a binge, then steer away from them completely for the moment. Until a day you dont feel like eating the world. I know sometimes things are easier said than done. I find my biggest helper is to get out of the house even if it is just to go window shopping. Right now I am at the local library because of ppl who have recently moved in our household and I cant stand them. Mostly because I do not agree with their parenting. Also because they are always pawning the toddler off on me so they can go get drunk. If they actually had a job I might not mind as much. Although I really do not like kids. I learnt this after having my one and only child who is grown.
Journaling really does help to get it out on paper. It is a great form of release. So many of us are holding on to so many secrets that are gnawing away at our well being.
Another suggestion would be to look into a 12 step program. I have taught about this. I use to go to N.A. years ago due to drug issues, I really liked it. Honestly, food was my first addiction and the other came about because someone introduced it to me when I was voulerable and told me it would help me loose weight. It did although I lost a lot more than the weight. I never followed threw with it, just did what I had to do to get out of trouble.
Best of luck to you.