I have an eating disorder and i want to escape it

chloealaine23
chloealaine23 Posts: 8 Member
edited November 20 in Health and Weight Loss
I am bulimic for the past two years. I am not overweight or underweight as well. I want to maintain my current weight right now so i do some exercise once a week like muai thai. But everytime i eat something, i always feel guilty so when i feel like i overate, i'd keep eating everything and i won't stop until i finish it then i'd purge everything as well right after. It became my daily routine now and it is getting really worse. I don't wanna get fat and struggling to lose weight because of an upcoming event. I tried to be vegan but tempted to eat meat so i purge when i eat meat as well. I always crave sweets and starve myself but ending up binging and purging. I need help. Please.
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  • lishie_rebooted
    lishie_rebooted Posts: 2,973 Member
    Seek professional help
  • rainbowbow
    rainbowbow Posts: 7,490 Member
    you do need help. professional help which we cannot provide you. I wish you the best of luck, sweetheart. :(
  • chloealaine23
    chloealaine23 Posts: 8 Member
    Anyone else suffering the same banana?
  • chloealaine23
    chloealaine23 Posts: 8 Member
    It's nit easy to get professional help. Especially when your parents doesn't take it seriously and they wont believe that it's a serious disorder
  • Ninkyou
    Ninkyou Posts: 6,666 Member
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    It's nit easy to get professional help. Especially when your parents doesn't take it seriously and they wont believe that it's a serious disorder

    It IS easy to find professional help.

    http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/
  • Anna83704
    Anna83704 Posts: 37 Member
    Your profile says you're 18. You don't need your parents to seek help. If cost is an issue, look for a clinic in your area that provides low/no cost options.
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  • Liftng4Lis
    Liftng4Lis Posts: 15,151 Member
    edited June 2015
    You need to talk to your counselor then.
    School counselor.
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  • SherryTeach
    SherryTeach Posts: 2,836 Member
    If you are really 18, you are old enough to seek professional medical advice.
  • chloealaine23
    chloealaine23 Posts: 8 Member
    Thank you for your time reading this. Do you think i can still heal myself without professional help?
  • missiontofitness
    missiontofitness Posts: 4,059 Member
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    Thank you for your time reading this. Do you think i can still heal myself without professional help?

    No.
    You need to work with professionals.
  • Ninkyou
    Ninkyou Posts: 6,666 Member
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    Thank you for your time reading this. Do you think i can still heal myself without professional help?

    No. You need to seek a professional.
  • Anna83704
    Anna83704 Posts: 37 Member
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    Thank you for your time reading this. Do you think i can still heal myself without professional help?

    No. You NEED a professional. Wishing you the best!!

  • Kalikel
    Kalikel Posts: 9,603 Member
    edited June 2015
    The best thing to do, if your parents are useless, is to seek some help from someone at school. If there is a psychologist, ask to see them. If there isn't, find a teacher who seems normal, reasonable and nice and tell them your problem and ask them if they could help you find someone who could help you.

    If you have a friend who has a parent you know well and like, you could tell them. They could look into it.

    Relatives are a today issue. I'm assuming you'll know better about your relatives and have already decided that they aren't the right course.

    Church. If you go, you may already know someone there you can ask. Priests and rabbis are trained to act as counselors. Some are better than others, lol, but it's not an unfamiliar place for them, helping people with problems. That's what they do! Some churches these days have Free Medical Care day where doctors and nurses volunteer their time. I bet there is someone in your church who would volunteer to help you.

    You really need at least a therapist, but would be much better off with a team - doctor, dietitian and therapist.

    Until then, I don't know. Try eating more peanut butter. ;)
  • lishie_rebooted
    lishie_rebooted Posts: 2,973 Member
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    Thank you for your time reading this. Do you think i can still heal myself without professional help?

    No.
    Find professional help.
    it's difficult to recover from an eating disorder with a team, it'll be even harder alone.
  • rainbowbow
    rainbowbow Posts: 7,490 Member
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    Thank you for your time reading this. Do you think i can still heal myself without professional help?

    Eating disorders KILL. It is too serious to try and wing it yourself. Even with professional help it will be a hard battle. You can overcome it!
  • dredremeg
    dredremeg Posts: 202 Member
    No, you need to get professional help as soon as possible.
  • SoulOfRusalka
    SoulOfRusalka Posts: 1,201 Member
    It isn't easy to get professional help, but you really should. Have you told your parents the truth? If you tell them what you just wrote, I think it might be difficult for them to be in denial. If it's financially difficult, you could look around for OA meetings in your area? I tried that a couple of times but transport didn't work out for me so I can't vouch for it either way, but they were very welcoming to me as an anoretic/bulimic so I didn't feel very out of place. I understand your struggle and I hope it gets better :( good luck!
  • ckspores1018
    ckspores1018 Posts: 168 Member
    edited June 2015
    How many years have you struggled with this?

    I'm guessing if it was possible to treat without help, you'd have already done it. You are obviously aware of the destructive nature regarding your relationship with food.

    Please get professional help.

    Edited because I'm clearly having writing issues tonight.
  • chloealaine23
    chloealaine23 Posts: 8 Member
    I'm from the philippines. 18 is legal but you don't really get to be separated with your parents and i dont have the courage to go through this alone. I'd have to say that i'm really scared of hearing negative results from professionals.
  • RoxieDawn
    RoxieDawn Posts: 15,488 Member
    edited June 2015
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    Thank you for your time reading this. Do you think i can still heal myself without professional help?

    Maybe you can... it takes a whole lot of ones self and incredible discipline and commitment to want to get better. If you do want to get better, YOU WILL STOP... If not, you WILL NOT stop..

    If you can't stop, you need therapy... simple as that..
  • misskarne
    misskarne Posts: 1,765 Member
    chloealaine23 wrote: »
    I'm from the philippines. 18 is legal but you don't really get to be separated with your parents and i dont have the courage to go through this alone. I'd have to say that i'm really scared of hearing negative results from professionals.

    What negative result?

    Here's a negative result you will get without professional help: death.

    You need to get professional help. No-one here can help you.
  • chloealaine23
    chloealaine23 Posts: 8 Member
    Kalikel wrote: »
    The best thing to do, if your parents are useless, is to seek some help from someone at school. If there is a psychologist, ask to see them. If there isn't, find a teacher who seems normal, reasonable and nice and tell them your problem and ask them if they could help you find someone who could help you.

    If you have a friend who has a parent you know well and like, you could tell them. They could look into it.

    Relatives are a today issue. I'm assuming you'll know better about your relatives and have already decided that they aren't the right course.

    Church. If you go, you may already know someone there you can ask. Priests and rabbis are trained to act as counselors. Some are better than others, lol, but it's not an unfamiliar place for them, helping people with problems. That's what they do! Some churches these days have Free Medical Care day where doctors and nurses volunteer their time. I bet there is someone in your church who would volunteer to help you.

    You really need at least a therapist, but would be much better off with a team - doctor, dietitian and therapist.

    Until then, I don't know. Try eating more peanut butter. ;)

    Thank you so much. I will try. :)
  • jill7755
    jill7755 Posts: 2 Member
    I guess people forget what it's like to be 18. It's hard to venture out and do things independently sometimes. Especially when it's something as hard as seeking help for an ED. I know this, I lived this. Please don't keep it to yourself. Keeping it a secret makes it easier for it to control and consume you. Tell some people that you trust that will help you get help. You do need professional help because breaking those habits and thought patterns is really hard and you need someone outside of yourself to help pull you out and give you a different perspective - a new way of thinking. You can beat this, I did it! Best of luck to you!

  • chloealaine23
    chloealaine23 Posts: 8 Member
    LadyAbsynthe wrote: »
    It isn't easy to get professional help, but you really should. Have you told your parents the truth? If you tell them what you just wrote, I think it might be difficult for them to be in denial. If it's financially difficult, you could look around for OA meetings in your area? I tried that a couple of times but transport didn't work out for me so I can't vouch for it either way, but they were very welcoming to me as an anoretic/bulimic so I didn't feel very out of place. I understand your struggle and I hope it gets better :( good luck!

    Thank you. I will try doing your advice.
  • karmagirl71
    karmagirl71 Posts: 4 Member
    I struggled with bulimia at a time when I was very isolated both physically and emotionally. I thought I could "fix" it myself but I was very wrong. I messed up my health a lot by not getting help early on. The sooner you reach out for help, the better. If your parents don't think it's serious, know that there are people out there who will. There are professionals who will listen to you and help you. Being 18 is hard enough; you don't need to deal with bulimia by yourself.
  • elcollins24
    elcollins24 Posts: 42 Member
    You really should get professional help but i fully understand how daunting that can be. Can you start by talking to a friend or family member - someone you can trust? I used to suffer from EDNOS and my break through moment was when i confided in my friend. We talked for hours and she was the best support i could ever have asked for. We worked out a plan for going forward and she keeps me accountable even to this day. If ever i feel my restrictive thoughts coming back i tell her and we talk it through. Sharing with someone really helped me. But we are all different and you may not feel that will help you.
    Just dont feel you are alone in this.
  • charliebartlam
    charliebartlam Posts: 9 Member
    I'm in the same situation. PM me if you want to talk about it x
  • kimadm4
    kimadm4 Posts: 68 Member
    jill7755 wrote: »
    I guess people forget what it's like to be 18. It's hard to venture out and do things independently sometimes. Especially when it's something as hard as seeking help for an ED. I know this, I lived this. Please don't keep it to yourself. Keeping it a secret makes it easier for it to control and consume you. Tell some people that you trust that will help you get help. You do need professional help because breaking those habits and thought patterns is really hard and you need someone outside of yourself to help pull you out and give you a different perspective - a new way of thinking. You can beat this, I did it! Best of luck to you!

    Absolutely this, please try to read the above post often. You can do it.
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