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I decided that how I was living my life was grossly irresponsible to myself. I have a genetic condition that makes my weight affect my joints more than other people. I had always keep the number 200 in the back of my mind... as long as I don't go over I'm fine. But of course that was a lie that I let myself live for 42 years. I can't undo the damage I've done to my body but I can change my future. I go out and exercise because it needs to be done. There is no want. I don't want to go out and do it.

Mind you this isn't by my choice. If I could walk more than 20 feet without needing a cane or go a mile without needing an ambulance then I wouldn't have a problem with motivation because I loved walking for exercise when I could do it.

Now I do my exercise in a pool. I'm going to go change into my bathing suit now and put on some sun screen. My waterproof headphones will keep me from being so bored I want to claw out my own brain and I will exercise. I'm always proud of myself after I am done and that gets me through the pain that is always the aftermath.

But motivation? If your love for yourself can't get you out of that chair then you need to sit and think about it until it can.

I found your post so inspirational thank you! Hope you had a good swim and if I can help support you on this journey please let me know