This is going to be a long journey!

SWAMPFLOWER435
SWAMPFLOWER435 Posts: 5 Member
edited November 2024 in Getting Started
Hey yall. So after 30 years of telling myself I don't care about my weight, made jokes about eating as a hobby, and really believing my hubby when he says he loves me anyway, regardless of my size....My fat happy(?) life was turned upside down in April when my body sent me an urgent message which jolted me into reality. Diabetes! Well that wasn't in my plan! I now want to get real and get healthy. Enough denial. What was I thinking all those years? Its like I don't even know myself! And looking in the mirror gives me no answers-is that bloated, old and tired looking lady really me??? There is an ever present look of pain on my face, even when I am happy. And the pain is throughout my body. The only time it doesn't hurt is when I am sitting down. So I sit-no, I SAT 90% of the day! I have gotten this extra wide butt in gear and will break out of this prison of pain and poison. Move more, eat healthy. That's my plan. So, this is going to be a long journey, I have 135 lbs to lose. But I will do this. I only hope I can forgive myself for being so abusive to my body for so long. I would welcome any friends who are on a similar journey. I am on my way to find myself.

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  • CassarahW
    CassarahW Posts: 93 Member
    I LOVE LOVE LOVE that you are working on forgiving yourself. Trust me, you will treat yourself (and your body) so much better once you can forgive and learn to love you. ((hugs)) I have 100 lbs to lose, if it's ok, I'll send you a friend request.
  • wochlikgm
    wochlikgm Posts: 131 Member
    Wow, what a powerful story. Two years ago, I twisted my ankle and got gout. I didn't start taking care of my body until two months ago... We are all here on the same journey. We are not alone, we have the support and encouragement of all the MFP members.
  • SWAMPFLOWER435
    SWAMPFLOWER435 Posts: 5 Member
    Yes please! I would love to be friends. Thank you for your kind words. This is going to be fun...:) :)
  • melissasue0317
    melissasue0317 Posts: 338 Member
    You can do this! I was face to face with diabetes though did not fully get there just yet. Morbid obesity, hypertension, pre-eclampsia and gestational diabetes with my twins. Everything hurt on me physically, I was just alive but not really living.

    Fast forward 22 months later and 130lbs gone, I am finally LIVING and loving every second. Diet is huge!! I still have a ways to go but the journey getting here has been steady.
  • LiveLoveLift48
    LiveLoveLift48 Posts: 379 Member
    Sometimes it takes a wake up call to get us out of our comfort zone. I can relate 100% with what you are going through and how you are feeling. I started this journey 3 years ago feeling exactly like you do now. Yes it will be a long journey....a LIFELONG journey....it wont always be easy but it will be worth it. For every pound you lose, you will gain so much more in health, confidence and so much more. I have had a few setbacks and put a few of my pounds back on and have felt exactly like you and kicking myself in the butt for letting it happen but, were human....welcome to the club, theres like a billion of us.

    Set yourself some small goals to start and work on those every day. Then keep adding more when the first ones become a habit. Dont look at it as i have 135 lbs to lose.....tell yourself " i can lose 1 lb ...135 times. " Good luck to you in your journey , eat well and stay off your butt as much as possable.
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