I hate myself.

xxKrissxx
xxKrissxx Posts: 247 Member
edited November 2024 in Motivation and Support
My very existence is a complete waste of life.
Everything i do is a failure.
I look in the mirror and im disgusted, I want to vomit.
Repulsive.

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  • mbaker566
    mbaker566 Posts: 11,233 Member
    you are here. so that is not a failure. that is a success.
  • 999tigger
    999tigger Posts: 5,235 Member
    Not really a healthy way of thinking. Go and speak to your Dr to get some professional support. If things are rubbish they have the potential to get better.

    If its just about needing to lose weight then it really is straightforward and you cna do it if you wnat it enough. Energy spent hating yourself is energy you could be using to be friends and support your weight loss journey. Its your choice.
  • Darton2010
    Darton2010 Posts: 137 Member
    Stop looking at yourself in the mirror, listen to what people on here have to say and read about how they were successful, come up with a plan and start your own program and after a few months look at the new person in the mirror, it doesn't all happen at once so be patient and try not to get discouraged.
  • tomatoey
    tomatoey Posts: 5,446 Member
    edited August 2015
    What you're feeling right now isn't a permanent feeling, even though it might seem that way. You can turn things around. You can change your life.
  • tomatoey
    tomatoey Posts: 5,446 Member
    Read about Buckminster Fuller.
  • zoeysasha37
    zoeysasha37 Posts: 7,088 Member
    The good news is, your here. So you've already taken the first step.
    You can do this !
  • zoeysasha37
    zoeysasha37 Posts: 7,088 Member
    tomatoey wrote: »
    What you're feeling right now isn't a permanent feeling, even though it might seem that way. You can turn things around. You can change your life.

    I agree
  • MommyL2015
    MommyL2015 Posts: 1,411 Member
    You are not what you see in the mirror.
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  • tomatoey
    tomatoey Posts: 5,446 Member
    edited August 2015
    On the weight stuff - stop looking in the mirror for a while, number one. Weight loss is weird, bodies respond in unpredictable ways. There are strange changes that are temporary. And our mental map of our body is slow to catch up to all those changes. You won't know how you'll look when you get to target until you get there.

    There are things you can do to improve whatever it is that's bothering you (some of it now).

    If you've lost 40 lbs in 110 days, that means you're on an aggressive deficit that is going to make anyone feel terrible. Get some help with setting nutritional targets that are NOT going to make you feel hungry or fatigued. Based on what you've said, it sounds like you can probably stand to eat a bit more.

    Feeling worthless... that is something that can change, too. Do you feel like your psychologist is helping?

    FWIW, I have had times in the past where I felt similar to what it sounds like you feel like now. And I don't, at all, anymore.

    It is totally possible to feel good about life, and about yourself. Even when you've got a head full of bad memories. Really - things can change.

    For now - get away from that mirror. Have a glass of water. Talk to someone you care about, or go to the park for a bit.
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  • ms_smartypants
    ms_smartypants Posts: 8,278 Member
    Sorry you feel that way Kris....and sorry you deleted the friends you had on here....If you ever want to talk you can message me ....I hope you can get better and love yourself ...you are a beautiful person :)
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  • ms_smartypants
    ms_smartypants Posts: 8,278 Member
    hmmmm how could you feel lonely when we were there to support you? You had quite a few responses about your food diary or what not ...We are here for you
  • tomatoey
    tomatoey Posts: 5,446 Member
    edited August 2015
    MiniChefKriss wrote: »
    The psychologist just has me writing every negative mood i have in a journal right now.

    I already work out, go for walks and drink lots of water, those things do not change the fact that i hate myself any less. I do not have anyone in real life to speak to, no friends, no family. I've got cats. thats it.

    Sounds like you're just starting therapy, then? It will take some time to see improvements, unfortunately.

    I'm sorry you're on your own. It sounds like some people here know you, and want to reach out to you, though :) Have you ever tried group therapy? It might help to talk to other people who are going through the same kind of thing.
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  • tomatoey
    tomatoey Posts: 5,446 Member
    MiniChefKriss wrote: »
    Im just gonna go.
    I am sorry for making this board, i know im a nut job and its no one elses problem.
    Thanks.

    Ok... You're not a "nut job", though - lots of people have experienced depression, you might be surprised.
  • zoeysasha37
    zoeysasha37 Posts: 7,088 Member
    Oh man. It sounds like your having a really tough time right now.
    What seems hopeless now ,often seems very differently later on. Please don't give up hope.
    I know right now is an awful time for you but you must try to think about getting better. If your current phyc isn't working out well, please look into finding a new one .
  • zoeysasha37
    zoeysasha37 Posts: 7,088 Member
    Just going to leave this here. 1800273TALK . its the national suicide prevention hotline. They are available to talk 24-7. Please call this number if you are thinking about hurting yourself in any way.

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