My motivation (why i train)

I wrote this a few months ago. Lil story there feel free to pm me about it lol. But I've gotten some good feedback/pm's about it and figured I'd share my little rant.

Here goes:

People always wonder, what keeps you in on Friday nights? Why are you up at 6am on Sunday? More chicken? Really? Hell the UPS and FedEx guys think I'm nuts, boxes and boxes of supps coming in almost weekly.

So why do I do it? The time, the energy, the money? No, I've never been on stage. Sure there's a ton of bigger guys out there. All that work just to look good naked?

I'll tell you what I don't do it for. I don't train my *kitten* off so some half drunk girl can grab my arms at the bar. That's happened a time or two and well, just leaves me walking away shaking my head. I don't do it so I can have a nice butt, but thanks for those compliments I guess. I don't throw up big weights in the gym to brag or show off. There's nothing "cool" about chicken and rice every day.

I do it cuz while most people are sleeping in, I'm pushing myself. Obsessed, self centered? Maybe a little. But I don't weigh the value of what I'm doing against what the next guy is or isn't doing. I need to know that I'm better than what I was a day before. If I can do that, I know I'm not wasting my life, my time, my potential. Discipline? Yea it takes a lot of that. Two years ago I was still waking up drunk, looking for the next excuse to party. Two years ago today I'd be in bed, smelling of captain n coke. Today, I'm getting ready to warm up with my max from 2 years ago.

I do it cuz I love it. Ya, puking after squatting doesn't sound fun, fainting after a bench press sounds overboard. Nobody's paying me, nobody's cheering for me, hell I'm pretty sure nobody besides me cares. And that's the most fulfilling part. I do it for me, because I love it, it inspires me, it makes me feel good. It doesn't matter if I had an amazing day or a real ****ty one. The weights don't care. The weights tell me when I'm trying, they tell me when I'm not. And when they say I do, that goes with me everywhere, it's in everything I do.

I don't need to look at pics of the pro's or hear about so-and-so's new PR. I got my own pics. I have my own PR's. I can watch myself grow, change, improve. I can see myself make mistakes, miss goals, and come up short. But I also know I have the power to change, to learn from mistakes, try harder at those goals. Coming up short is temporary, you haven't failed until you give up. Your success is completely in your own hands.

So no, I don't train to look good or impress you. I train because it moves me.