on a mission to find the old me... goal as of now 40lbs!!

MamaGemini123
MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
edited November 23 in Introduce Yourself
Ive gone from one extream to the other and i want out from both. From my early teens to my early twenties i was anorexic. But the min i found out i was pregnant i snapped into reality. I was taking care of my self!

But after my second at 28 I got sick and with meds packed on the pounds. I gave up! I let depression and anxiety take over.. well that just added more pounds..

Ive tried to lose the weight I did. But to others every time i tried it was a joke.. not to mention and wont lie i hit the bottle! Yep booze and food.. well doing this for a few years(not proud) but self medicating in wrong ways. Still not happy..

But Im back on more then one mission!! Get off the bottle and find the old me for i was there at a small time frame but i was there..

Im now 35.. 5'3 and yep 190!! And yep all belly!! Ive been asked countless time when im due lol...

Now today ive been at eating healthy and being active for a week. I know it dont sound like much but.... the light bulb has been turned on! Not to mention ive tried before but people around me always took it as a joke.. today ive finally got the moral suport!! And yep treated the fam to fast food(we dont eat out much that no lie!) Hubby and kids pigged out and yep i watched what i ate happy and with out being ridiculed. Actually got hey good job for a change..

My goal now for i want to be realistic is to lose 40lb by the end of jan! Been doing less the 1200 cal a day and working out and burning a min of 3-400 cal a day..
One week in lost 5lbs!!! Heck yeah im happy!! I know it dont sound much but for me im learning life change not diet!! Slow and steady and even whennibget to my goal this is a life change not a temp change!

P.s sorry for taking up so much of your time if your reading this hehe. Wow hounestly thay felt so good to let it out and be hounest

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  • MamaGemini123
    MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
    Anyone else need a motivational friend?
  • nevergiveupvetter
    nevergiveupvetter Posts: 1 Member
    Awesome for being so honest with yourself and others! You Can Do This! Its just One Day At a Time! Keep up the good work!!!
  • MamaGemini123
    MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
    Down 2lbs this week yeah!!! If anyone else is needing suportive non judgemental friends add me
  • 123juliaj123
    123juliaj123 Posts: 76 Member
    Mama Gemini I think you can do this! You sound like you have made your mind up to be the you that you want to be and if you want to add me as a friend I would be happy if we could motivate each other :)
  • rsclause
    rsclause Posts: 3,103 Member
    As you are getting fit you will need some fuel and nurishment. Don't be afraid to eat back some. I will never forget going way under thinking I am killing this. I felt so bad I had to stop exercising for two days and never lost a pound. I lost more on a slight deficit.
  • MamaGemini123
    MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
    Thank you! Im going slow and steady.. today ia the first day that im tooo zzzz to do anything.. i so want to but will listen to my body. Im ok with that. I now it may sound cheesy but this time it feels different. Ive never wanted something so bad for my self like this.
  • birdmoma
    birdmoma Posts: 2 Member
    Good for you! I am on the quest to become the slender lady I once was and is still in there somewhere. 5'2" and 196. Been at it since Aug 19, but not 100% till the last couple of weeks. Hard to get rid of old habits, but my ex (we are friends & he was a personal trainer or years) is helping me stay on track. I am lucky, my coworkers and son are very supportive. I have only lost 6 lbs, but am happy and feel like I am in control for the first time in a long time. Happy to help support you and receive it from you!
  • MamaGemini123
    MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
    Keep it up birdmoma! I too am 5'2ish. Started off in july and down to 188!! Avg two pounds a week. It a long road ahead but we'll get there
  • sakurablush
    sakurablush Posts: 104 Member
    I was like that at the start of this year. Last autumn I pretty much hit an all time low in terms of self esteem and not caring about my appearance. By the time last Christmas and New Year rolled round, I had pretty much snapped into the mentality that something needed to change. I don't know why I fixed on losing weight as a way of changing myself; I thought if I did that and have a goal, everything else would snap into place. That might be why I'm pretty strict with myself over what I eat and my exercise; like if I can get that right, and it's something I can control, it will get the ball rolling so to speak.

    Almost a year later I've lost over half the weight I wanted to, take pride in my appearance again and feel much more positive about life. So...keep it up, the beginning is hard as hell but it gets easier. The way I got through things was to push myself to keep going, no matter how awful I felt on the day.
  • MamaGemini123
    MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
    sakurablush wrote: »
    I was like that at the start of this year. Last autumn I pretty much hit an all time low in terms of self esteem and not caring about my appearance. By the time last Christmas and New Year rolled round, I had pretty much snapped into the mentality that something needed to change. I don't know why I fixed on losing weight as a way of changing myself; I thought if I did that and have a goal, everything else would snap into place. That might be why I'm pretty strict with myself over what I eat and my exercise; like if I can get that right, and it's something I can control, it will get the ball rolling so to speak.

    Almost a year later I've lost over half the weight I wanted to, take pride in my appearance again and feel much more positive about life. So...keep it up, the beginning is hard as hell but it gets easier. The way I got through things was to push myself to keep going, no matter how awful I felt on the day.

  • sistermargret
    sistermargret Posts: 49 Member
    I'm 5'7" and 245. I have severe rhumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia. I started with a goal of not using the carts at Walmart. Then walking to the end of the block. For the first time in 20 yrs, since I got sick I walked .9 miles! It took me 27 minutes, but I did it!!!! :)
  • sistermargret
    sistermargret Posts: 49 Member
    Don't give up. I've been working for 20 years to walk again.
  • PinkPixiexox
    PinkPixiexox Posts: 4,142 Member
    Hi :)
    It's good to see you're feeling stronger and more able to do this now. I know you can do it - you just need to give it 110%. Don't worry if you 'fall off the wagon' some days, the key is to never give up. If you struggle, remember why this is so important to you and of course, don't forget MFP forum's will help you massively.

    I would suggest eating 1200 at least for the time being. 1200 is the lowest you can safely go - so you may even be able to eat a bit more than that. If you are comfortable at 1200, then by all means carry on as you are for now and congratulations on the loss.

    Best of luck!
  • QueenRosie34
    QueenRosie34 Posts: 1 Member
    Wow so much inspiration this is Awesome. I am 5'2 and weigh at 242.0lbs. I have had 3 children and since my first one gradually gained. And have had many years of depression. I am starting a new part of my life with just passing my one year anniversary with my wonderful husband and best friend Michael. As he and I are trying to get healthier together. He is my main supporter. I do need daily encouragement at my last week weigh in with TOPS I have lost 5.2 pounds in two weeks. That was a wonderful feeling. I and very encouraged to keep on my journey for a healthier lifestyle. If anyone would like to be friends and we can encourage each other please add me as a friend. May God Bless all of you.
  • MamaGemini123
    MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
    Omgosh finally words that are so me!!! Ive tied and failed in the past.. i wont lie... but now it like bang pop boom!! Im loving me again!! Yes inlove fat me but i love smaller me me and i will get there!! I let control of me let go and now i gorniback and not going to give it uo. This time k knkw it sounds silly but feels so different!
    MamaGemini123 wrote: »
    Ive gone from one extream to the other and i want out from both. From my early teens to my early twenties i was anorexic. But the min i found out i was pregnant i snapped into reality. I was taking care of my self!

    But after my second at 28 I got sick and with meds packed on the pounds. I gave up! I let depression and anxiety take over.. well that just added more pounds..

    Ive tried to lose the weight I did. But to others every time i tried it was a joke.. not to mention and wont lie i hit the bottle! Yep booze and food.. well doing this for a few years(not proud) but self medicating in wrong ways. Still not happy..

    But Im back on more then one mission!! Get off the bottle and find the old me for i was there at a small time frame but i was there..

    Im now 35.. 5'3 and yep 190!! And yep all belly!! Ive been asked countless time when im due lol...

    Now today ive been at eating healthy and being active for a week. I know it dont sound like much but.... the light bulb has been turned on! Not to mention ive tried before but people around me always took it as a joke.. today ive finally got the moral suport!! And yep treated the fam to fast food(we dont eat out much that no lie!) Hubby and kids pigged out and yep i watched what i ate happy and with out being ridiculed. Actually got hey good job for a change..

    My goal now for i want to be realistic is to lose 40lb by the end of jan! Been doing less the 1200 cal a day and working out and burning a min of 3-400 cal a day..
    One week in lost 5lbs!!! Heck yeah im happy!! I know it dont sound much but for me im learning life change not diet!! Slow and steady and even whennibget to my goal this is a life change not a temp change!

    P.s sorry for taking up so much of your time if your reading this hehe. Wow hounestly thay felt so good to let it out and be hounest

  • MamaGemini123
    MamaGemini123 Posts: 20 Member
    Still looking for more friends!!
  • bluehydra
    bluehydra Posts: 5 Member
    I am in the same boat! I was diagnosed with a chronic illness, and medication made me gain 30+ lbs. Working to get myself back now! Feel free to accept my add so we can help motivate each other :)
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