Help! Let's commit to change together!

Hello everyone, I've decide I need to make the commitment to change. The past 2 months I've been physically feeling horrible. Fatigue all the time, terrible sleeping pattern, my skin has changed, and not to mention I find myself staying in my PJs most days. My home life has been suffering greatly as well as my attitude in general. The past month my not so great eating habits have gone to a whole new level of terribleness. I've been scared to get on the scale but I did it today. I was 2 lbs away from the heaviest I've ever been. The last time I was at this weight I did something about it and lost over 50% of my goal (thanks to MFP). This time the matter seems more pressing since I have a child to care for and would like to have more. I want to be the best version of me for him, my spouse and myself. Right now I feel so defeated though, with a lack of motivation to do anything about it. My weight loss goal of 75-90 lbs seems almost impossible. So here I am taking baby steps, and reaching out to the MFP community for help (asking for help doesn't come easy for me). I'm looking for people who are currently, or been where I'm at and have been successful. I need people who will help me hold myself accountable, and give me the motivation I need especially on those very difficult days. I would also like to be able to help others where I can as well. It's in my nature to want to help people. So this will not be a 1 sided MFP relationship. So message me, friend me, offer advice. I'm open for it. I NEED to make the change. I absolutely NEED to commit. I just don't want to do it alone.
Thank you,
Lo