"RECOVERY AND WEIGHT LOSS"

rmullins1981 wrote: »

Hello, my name is Richard. I am a recovering functional alcoholic and food demon... I came to the thought that my drinking and weight gain go hand in hand.. Now listen I am not saying everyone is like this. This is just me and my demons that I fight..

With my addictions my brain would say "Richard, you don drive when your drinking, get mad, you don't miss work, your not like those people on the streets, or go out clubbing" drink that drink.. That was my addiction talking..Which would start out with a beer and end up being a whole pint of rum, even going back to the store for more.. And after I had my fill of alcohol, then it was time for Jack in the Box or something of that nature.. I would order all kinds of stuff. I calculated out one time.. $23 just for myself at the fast food joint..

So, with that being said. I printed out 3 months of credit card and bank statements.. I only highlighted when I went to the store to buy alcohol and going out to eat with the family and food binges.. WOW................................. $2050 on trips to the store and $1300 on trips to fast food or eating out.. It hit me like a ton of brinks, right to the face.......................... I decided that something had to change....

I am the cook in the house (which makes this easy). I invested in a dining room table and started the family sitting down and eating a homemade meal.. There is just an intoxicating happiness that happens when families come together for those little 20 min and laughs and talks about their day.. I am truly blessed and have forgot how I was raised at the table also...

So, I start having each family member pick something out for dinner on pinterest and I went to work. Since I am the cook, I am talking their favorite dishes and making them more healthy (without telling them). I went a week with their dishes and the next started putting healthier ingredients. They don't know the difference.

I start out weighing 350 pounds..... And after making the changes I am 330 pounds in a little 2 week period.. I know that it is easy to be motivated now. I am starting this message board in order to help other people that are going thru the same thing that I am and also help myself out by putting my demons on blast.. This is a hard thing for me to do.. My mind says "You are a man.. You work out in the oilfields and do man stuff".. Well its time to tell that brain to shut its mouth and trying something new.. Because this isn't the first time I have tried to lose weight..

I hope this helps.. To those of you reading this and that need help.. There is nothing wrong with asking for help. Chances are everyone already knows but you.. No Shame, No Gilt, and looking at yourself now and feeling bad.. Rejoice in that "Today is the day that I take my-life back" Make that chose and if you fall then don't beat yourself up. Just get up and try and try and try like hell not to do it again.. No sense on beating yourself up.. We are human and we all mess up.

I am just going to do what I can everyday and in my mind, that is good enough...

Please leave comments. I am going to start posting on this everyday on how it is going for me. The tough and good times.. I hope to hear from you...

Peace be with you all......