Restart number 5. Need accountability buddies for depression lows

I go through this starting phase about 4 times a year. I do really well for about a month (averaging 10 lbs loss a month) and then depression kicks me down and it sucks. My husband is an enabler and I just need some help getting through these down times instead of laying in bed eating chocolate. My blood sugar and cholesterol are above average for the first time in my life and I just feel gross and am ready to try again. I have 125 to lose.