The Most I Have EVER Weighed

I'm not sure how it happened but when I step on the scale I now see a number that I have never seen before, even with three pregnancies. I am positive that if I had my routine bloodwork done it would show a very high cholesterol number and possible diabetes. I feel like my back is up against a wall and the only way that I can go is forward. Sometimes I wish that I was comfortable being at least 35 pounds overweight, but the reality is I am extremely uncomfortable, my clothes don't fit and I feel very unhealthy. So, forward I will go. It's almost a relief to finally be ready to make a change. Wish me luck! And I wish all of you good fortune in your endeavors, whatever they may be.