I need someone to kick my butt

NikkiLynn76
NikkiLynn76 Posts: 40
edited September 28 in Health and Weight Loss
I am so disgusted with myself. I have been heavy almost my entire life. I'm an emotion and boredom eater. I started this journey at the beginning of Dec of last year determined to lose weight. I was on and off (mostly on) and lost 32 pounds. Somewhere in the last few months I gave up. I have kept the weight off but I have not been monitoring my intake like I should and I certainly haven't done much exercising. I have allowed everything to go to crap because I have been depressed and discouraged.

I don't know anyone around me except one person, and she and I don't have a lot in common really except teen daughters who are friends. I don't have anyone I really talk to on a regular basis except on facebook and I have allowed my new lifestyle to fade into the back ground. No one has brought it up and because I faded and didn't encourage people I kinda disappeared. I apologize to all those still on my friends list for not being a better "friend".

I need to do this. I HAVE to do this. I can't give up or I will never change anything. I am sick over the time I have lost.

I went grocery shopping yesterday. No junk (except snacks for my kids). Almonds, tons of salad and chicken. Time to get back on the boat. My house is a mess so after I run some errands today it's time to start deep cleaning (today and through the weekend). It's too hot to walk outside really and difficult with a toddler, but I'm going to put on an exercise video every day.

I need people to kick my butt.

Feel free to add me on here and on facebook (www.facebook.com/ceismomma)

Thanks for listening.

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  • shelld70
    shelld70 Posts: 106
    Ok, bend over...*kick*! lol:laugh: You can do this! You did it before! Do this for you. You have so much going for you. Your kids, pursuing your education. Log in to MFP everyday, if only to get motivation. Hang in there!
  • BGabbart
    BGabbart Posts: 173 Member
    It is great that you have seen where you have pulled back and you are ready to get started again. This is a life long commitment so all of us are going to have our bad times. Don't beat yourself up, just start again and again and again. Remember that this is not a diet it is a life change to make better choices and even though sometimes we make the wrong choice and suffer for it we can make the right choice the next time. May God bless you on your journey.

    Enjoy that baby.
  • amberlee2011
    amberlee2011 Posts: 129
    I have struggled with my weight for my whole life also. When you get depressed, the last thing that you want to do is work out, but you should do it anyway. Get your kids into it and go walking together. I’ve learned that you can’t count on other people to motivate you, because you aren’t going to do it unless you are ready to do it and put the work in. There is no quick fix, just a lot of hard work. The times that I have started exercise pacts or joined gyms with friends have ended up with me not going because they didn’t. I let myself hit 199 pounds before I decided enough was enough and that I wasn’t going to live my life in this body in the shape it is in. I started this site two weeks ago at 196 and I am at 192 now (from what the scale said when I peeked this morning) and this is my second week. The only thing I cut out completely is fast food and I used to eat it everyday at lunch. Four days later and I’m not even craving it – which was a huge surprise to me! Anyway, you have to DO. Go for a walk today. Silence those little excuses voices and make it happen today! I’ve been taking it day by day and not looking to far ahead because that’s what can trip you up. Feel free to add me as a buddy and today, this moment, is your time to start fresh and start moving!
  • abalicious
    abalicious Posts: 361 Member
    *KICK* :smile: you CAN and WILL do this!!! do you realize how many people on this site have, at one point or another, "given up?" The important thing is that you came back and that shows you really want to lose weight. Be proud of that!
  • crazywheaten
    crazywheaten Posts: 73
    The fact that you owned up and posted this here speaks volumes so kudos on that. Second--don't discount your 32 lb. loss--that is amazing! I'm at 11 and that was a struggle so again--pat yourself on the back! MFP is the BEST place for support, IMO. Post here when you're feeling crummy or need a lift and within minutes you'll have 20 replies with encouragement and ideas--it's fantastic! This morning alone I've compiled a shopping list with food ideas and reminders of things I had forgotten about thanks to the amazing faceless people.

    And while you had a stretch of checking out--forget it. It's in the past. You are stating you're ready to move on so be in the present. Log your food again and move on.
  • Jellyphant
    Jellyphant Posts: 1,400 Member
    As someone told me, in the most brutal way, you will be well on your way to gaining more and more weight if you continue with your lifestyle. Health problems will begin to arise, and when you DO lose weight, you'll regret that you didn't do it sooner because of all that dreaded loose skin in the areas where you lost alot.

    She was a whole lot worse on me. :( Yeah, it made me depressed, but it kicked me back into it when I was down and ready to quit this site. You can totally do it if you reaaaallllyyyy put your mind to it! :D
  • tladame
    tladame Posts: 465 Member
    Good for you for busting out the workout DVDs. I made excuses for years that I didn't have enough time to exercise. Then I finally got some workout DVDs. I work full time and have a toddler, so I do my workout at 5:00am before anyone else gets up. Then it's out of the way and I feel good for the rest of the day.

    Don't beat yourself up, just get back on the bike and keep coming here for support! =)
  • andringa29
    andringa29 Posts: 1
    Hey girl, cut yourself a little slack here. You are being way too hard on yourself, you don't have to be perfect; none of us are. I'll share my little ritual when I get in this same funk. Step 1: rent a real tear-jerker of a movie, something guaranteed to make you cry; it's very cathardic, let go and get it out of your system. Step 2: put your toddler down for a nap and take a nice long soak in the tub with lots of bubbles and your favorite music playing - let go of the guilt for what you're not doing; it's not helping you. Step 3: put on your comfy clothes and some great dance music and start cleaning and organizing (I sing at the top of my lungs and dance, too - embarrassing, but true); it's amazing how a little spot of organization in your life can start things moving forward positively. Step 4: have some fun - do your nails, try a new hair style, call one of your friends you haven't talked to in a while and meet at the park for a walk. Step 5: learn to look at changing your meal choices as a way to spoil yourself, buy the best and freshest ingredients you can afford and have fun cooking it, because you are totally worth it - that nasty junk food is just not good enough for you - you are so much better than that garbage! Step 6: repeat as often as needed! I'm not therapist but I know what helps me get out of the funk and I hope it helps encourage you, too.
  • TurtleCrush
    TurtleCrush Posts: 80
    I am so disgusted with myself. I have been heavy almost my entire life. I'm an emotion and boredom eater. I started this journey at the beginning of Dec of last year determined to lose weight. I was on and off (mostly on) and lost 32 pounds. Somewhere in the last few months I gave up. I have kept the weight off but I have not been monitoring my intake like I should and I certainly haven't done much exercising. I have allowed everything to go to crap because I have been depressed and discouraged.

    I don't know anyone around me except one person, and she and I don't have a lot in common really except teen daughters who are friends. I don't have anyone I really talk to on a regular basis except on facebook and I have allowed my new lifestyle to fade into the back ground. No one has brought it up and because I faded and didn't encourage people I kinda disappeared. I apologize to all those still on my friends list for not being a better "friend".

    I need to do this. I HAVE to do this. I can't give up or I will never change anything. I am sick over the time I have lost.

    I went grocery shopping yesterday. No junk (except snacks for my kids). Almonds, tons of salad and chicken. Time to get back on the boat. My house is a mess so after I run some errands today it's time to start deep cleaning (today and through the weekend). It's too hot to walk outside really and difficult with a toddler, but I'm going to put on an exercise video every day.

    I need people to kick my butt.

    Feel free to add me on here and on facebook (www.facebook.com/ceismomma)

    Thanks for listening.

    You can totally do this! First stop criticizing yourself so much! Loosing weight isn't just about loosing weight. Its about turning your life from chaos to paradise. You have to work on yourself mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually and make it a TOTAL LIFE experience and journey. Most often what people want out of being healthy or thin is just to like themselves better and you can do that now. You don't have to wait until you are thin to love or care about yourself enough to change for the better. Also don't be so critical on "wasting time" because in reality it took you a while to accumulate the weight and it will take time to take it off. You should be proud of yourself that you have kept it off. Be like Pollyanna and play the "Glad game" with yourself. Today write down 10 things about yourself that you like/love and dwell on those things for a week. See how much you smile afterward :) Have a happy day.

    Big hugs,
    Rebekah
  • feysheart
    feysheart Posts: 9
    *KICK* You lost 32 lbs thats sooo amazing! Don't give up on yourself, you can do this. YOU Will do this for you :) Big hugs.
  • annemotb
    annemotb Posts: 1
    You will definitely be able to do this. The boards are a great way to stay motivated. I find lots of useful tips and recipes that have made things better. Congratulations on the weight you have lost. :laugh:
  • Teeladog
    Teeladog Posts: 157 Member
    I too am an emotional eater and ESPECIALLY a boredom eater. I have found that the simple act of logging in and recording my food every day (several times a day, actually) has been HUGE for me. Stops the mindless boredom eating in its tracks.

    Get back on here...friend some new people (like me!)...get going again. You CAN and WILL do this!
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