Hello! I'm back on the horse...

Hello! My name is Amanda and I have always been on the thick side.After having my daughter 6 years ago, then losing all of my grandparents, 2 cousins, my mom, an aunt, and a close friend (all in two years after becoming mom) I got married. It was looking at those photos when I realized I was no longer thick but fat. Since then I have been on and off the horse. Last time I was logged in and doing well I had went from nearly 300 pounds down to 240... All was well..found out dad has cancer and off that horse I fell. I know it is no excuse but it is what it is.Now I am back 17months after falling and ready to feel better again. I have not given up! My goal is still 165 ( my happy weight ) 90 pounds to lose. I may fall but I won't stay down, I will always get back on that horse!