When did you stop feeling like you were big?

Firstly, seriously well done! That is so impressive. You should be feeling so proud of yourself. I think sometimes, even when you have made so much progress, you don't see how you have changed, you see and feel what you are used to feeling... which is how you felt at the size you used to be. I am part-way through my fitness/weight loss... and it is strange. On the one hand, it is so nice to feel smaller but it does take some getting used to. I recently went to buy a nice jumper/sweater and I had to convince myself into buying the right size (several smaller than what I would've picked up a year or two ago.) I asked my friend later 'does this definitely fit?'. She said yes. I couldn't quite believe it. I also struggle to recognise myself now with how I was in mirrors/photos. I guess you just have to see yourself as you are now, a much healthier person who has achieved a lot! Maybe treat yourself to a nice new outfit or do something you couldn't/wouldn't have wanted to do before. I think you will feel better in time, as you get used to the healthy person you have become. I hope I can achieve my goals like you have, you're an inspiration! :-)

It might just be the way my brain is wired but my change really sunk in through doing things. I still remembered when it really clicked I was doing a mud run that had an "over, under, through" section. I went over the wall, under the wall, and then through the wall and I stopped and looked back and thought "there is no way I should have fit through that wall" and I've been ok with my new size since then

I still feel fat. I don't think it will ever go away. Even when I'm putting on some size S tight dresses, and they fit, I find some fat spots on my body.

im down 80 pounds and have 30 left to go.

sometimes i feel tiny (which im not LOL) and sometimes i feel like moby dick.

i always feel better than i used to though

Spend more time in front of the mirror getting used to seeing yourself from the outside. Take pictures of yourself and look at them often.

I struggled with this before. I hit my goal weight and still felt fat. I was scrutinizing EVERY little detail and honestly, there was no weight that would have satisfied me. Be careful! You may keep dieting and dieting and never be happy and it could jeopardize all your success. It's not unusual at all to reassess your goals, but it sounds to me like you might be fighting with accepting and being happy with the new you.

Congratulations on your loss! Its hard to change your mind when you are used to feeling like the big one. I am really tall so I've always felt "big" even thin.

I'd try writing down the things you like about yourself. They can be mental, not physical. Just start finding validation in yourself outside of your weight. Are you a good friend? A great writer? A healthy cook? Clearly you've made progress with your health, but maybe you need to make progress on the whole you.