Feeling Low

JenniferLynWhat
JenniferLynWhat Posts: 80
edited September 28 in Motivation and Support
Usually when I look at before and after photos I'm all "Wow, look at that, they look amazing" but today I'm just kinda down about it. Since coming home from college I've shot up from 215, to 224. None of my clothes fit. My jeans are all too tight and a dress that I bought maybe 2 months ago just barely zips. I can't wear any of my shorts from last summer and honestly, all I've worn since coming home are loose dresses and work out clothes (that stretch).

I've lost 5 lbs this week..but look at the before and after photos...everyone always looks better after. It's summer, I'm the biggest I've ever been AND I have to wear a bathing suit. Maybe next summer will be my bikini summer, but, that's a year away, and until then, I have to do laundry every three days because my clothes don't fit. I am stressed out and..I had a really really bad food day today and I'm over my "fat" limit but I exercised til I was down under my calorie limit and I'm not even sure what I'm doing now is going to keep working!

I want to be healthy...that's my big thing..I want to avoid the heart trouble and diabetes that runs through my entire family...but, I'm 20 and of course healthy also means, I want to feel pretty. I want to feel good and have men look at me and it's hard. I guess I'm just discouraged..I keep failing but, what if I hadn't failed a year ago, or the year before that..what if I WAS where I wanted to be right now...buttt I'm not.

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  • rharris86dc
    rharris86dc Posts: 635 Member
    I'm also having a down day, so I totally get where you are coming from.

    All we can do is just stick it out, and keep up with the workouts and eating right. You and I both know that it will pay off in the long run, and while today might be a bad day, the longer we keep working hard, the fewer and farther between the bad days will become!

    Add me if you want a motivation friend, and someone to vent to when you're feeling down!
  • findingfit23
    findingfit23 Posts: 845 Member
    The clothes thing can be so depressing. Not only does nothing fit, but what does fit is uncomfortably tight. It can only get better though. Stick with it, and maybe by end of summer you will have alot more options.
  • Christine1110
    Christine1110 Posts: 1,786 Member
    But if you start really pushing yourself now in a month you will be able to tell! Try Jillians 30 day Shred for 30 days straight....you will see a difference, and if you are really careful on your food, you will be back into your shorts. The dvd helps you lose weight, inches, and also gain muscle!! You'll be hot!! She also has No more trouble zones, & Ripped in 30 all great workouts!

    Good luck : )
  • Missashley9
    Missashley9 Posts: 29
    I totally feel you. I am at the heaviest I have been in my entire life. All I do is gain weight. I am 30 yrs old & weigh 300 lbs... which means I have put on 10 lbs a year, if you break it down. I am starting to feel it physically, too.... My knees, my back, the indents in my shoulders from the bras, the sleep apnea.... I know I am not healthy. My BF & I -- who live together, with his 8 yr old son -- talk about getting married & having a baby. But there is no way I would go & get pregnant being the way that I am now. I know it wouldn't be healthy for me or the baby. But I have been doing MFP for over a month and a half now, and have lost about 10 lbs. I am starting slow & trying not to beat myself up. The hardest part is taking that first step, & that is what I am doing. My main motivation? I want to be here. I want to live. I want to be healthy for my BF, my step son, my (possibly?) future child. For me, it has to be more serious than not shopping in the plus size section anymore or looking good in a swimsuit. But everyone is different. Find that one thing that you want to work toward, and keep plugging away at it. If you have a bad day (like I just did), brush it off & keep going. I wish you all the best of luck. You know you have lots of support-- even if it is from strangers!
  • beckyinma
    beckyinma Posts: 1,433 Member
    You are being really hard on yourself, and you should look at the bright side, you are HERE, looking for support, instead of standing in front of the fridge looking for something to stuff in your face! I for one am really proud of you for making that choice.

    I felt exactly the same way as you a couple months ago when I started this, NOTHING fit! Everything was tight and I had this nasty muffin top that made me wanna hurl. Stick with it, please don't get so down on yourself.

    One day at a time, one bite at a time, one step in front of the other and you WILL get there. Concentrate on doing good today and tomorrow, not next month or next year.

    So last night I was in the pissiest mood I've been in in a while.. skipped my evening workout because I was SO Pissed off at someone at the gym...but I should've gone.. then, go figure, pms...it's about the only time of the month where I get really depressed, about the stupidest things...but today was a much better day, and I even allowed myself to go over calories to celebrate my son learning to ride his bike...
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