Seeing a Counselor

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brb_2013
brb_2013 Posts: 1,197 Member
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I struggle with deep issues related to my self esteem, depression, and a lifetime of poor relationship with food. I've lost 100lbs before, through dedicating all of my free time to food and exercise and I broke, couldn't take it anymore and gave up. I've regained 50-60lbs.

The issues never went away, they were ignored and pushed aside to make room for obsessing about food and exercise. So now I'm left with all those feelings, plus the new guilt of having seen myself "smaller" (certainly not healthier), and now being huge again. I disgust myself constantly.

How can I possibly take care of myself when at my core I think I'm worthless? I imagine putting forth efforts to be healthy and losing weight again, but then failing to these same thoughts and feelings that will resurface even if I manage to bury them long enough to reach my goal weight. The mental health issues will still be there.

So I've made the decision to see a counselor. I have an appointment on Monday and I will do my best to keep at it even though it means working more to be able to afford it.

Does anyone have advice on this first appointment? I never have seen a counselor and am feeling apprehensive.
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  • peachyfuzzle
    peachyfuzzle Posts: 1,122 Member
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    Be honest, and be open regardless of how much it might hurt to dredge up old feelings.

    You're paying for it, so unless you give it the attention it needs, you'll gain very little to nothing at all.
  • snowflake954
    snowflake954 Posts: 8,399 Member
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    I don't have any advice, but just wanted to say---good for you! Tackle that problem, and go on with your life. I agree with above, just be yourself. Best of luck.
  • CollieFit
    CollieFit Posts: 1,683 Member
    edited February 2016
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    It's normal to feel apprehensive. The therapist will expect you to feel apprehensive. Try to be open and honest. It's a two way process. See if you feel you have a rapport. Ask how the counsellor works. There are many different modalities of counselling and psychotherapy (some look at the past more than others, some work entirely in the "here and now", some are more directive, some more client-led etc) and it's a case of finding someone whose approach you feel comfortable with. Good luck and great decision. x
  • Lourdesong
    Lourdesong Posts: 1,492 Member
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    Ask when you should expect to benefit from their services.
  • gailmelanie
    gailmelanie Posts: 210 Member
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    It would be good to have some goals in mind and at least a vague idea of what you want from the counselor. The real point of going to a therapist is to have someone skilled in guiding you through these issues and helping you build some skills to deal with them. It may not totally eliminate all the issues, but it can definitely help you get some relief. As CollieFit says, it's a good idea to ask the counselor how they work. If you don't feel comfortable with the person, you won't get as much out of it. I recommend looking into a therapist who can do EMDR with you. There may be things in your past which you don't consciously think about, but which affect your self-image and behavior that you need to discover and examine to help you reduce their power over your thoughts and behavior. Don't expect instant results. If it takes less than a year for you to feel like you've made good progress, you'll be doing well.
  • dubird
    dubird Posts: 1,849 Member
    edited February 2016
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    Be honest both with the counselor and with yourself. It will be uncomfortable opening yourself up that much, but it's necessary to see where you're at and how to get to where you want to be. And if you go and you don't like the counselor you've seen, it's perfectly ok to find another one or ask for a different referral. If you don't feel like you can become comfortable sharing intimate thoughts and feelings, you won't get any benefit out of it.

    On a practical note, you can also write down things you want them to know so you won't forget anything. Maybe keep a log for a few days leading up to the appointment, writing down how you're feeling over the course of the day and any thoughts you had that you think might be important. That can give you a starting point for the conversation, an ice-breaker if you will, and might make the process more comfortable for you.


    Edit: wanted to add something. There is a chance they will want you to start medicine. A good counselor or doctor won't default to that, they'll try other things to help. And some of those things may work out well for you. But if you do end up needing some kind of meds to correct a balance, there's no shame in that. Clinical depression is an imbalance in chemicals in the brain, something your body doesn't know how to adjust. The meds aren't 'happy pills' and they're not going to magically fix everything. What they do is bring things back into balance, allowing you to experience normal emotions. For me, they help me balance myself so I'm not stuck in the fail cycle for a long time. I still have those feelings and it will get me down for a while, but I can pull myself out of it now, instead of having to live with it for days on end. Everyone experiences it differently, and hopefully, you won't need to go to meds. But that is a possibility, so be aware of it.

    But, I will say if that's the first thing they suggest you do, get a second opinion. That shouldn't be the first thing they suggest unless things are REALLY bad.
  • Shells918
    Shells918 Posts: 1,070 Member
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    Write down what you want to discuss, or better yet, print out what you posted here. I think you're doing something wonderful for yourself by going to a counselor. Good luck!
  • Laurasparkle90
    Laurasparkle90 Posts: 29 Member
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    If you need anyone to talk to I'm here :) I had to see a counsellor and go through cognitive behavioural therapy. The best advice I can give is to be open and honest. Also, don't make too many judgements based on your first appointment. I left my first appointment thinking yeah this isn't for me, but I'm glad I saw it through to the end. Best of luck x
  • lorimc71
    lorimc71 Posts: 9 Member
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    May I recommend CBT Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. See if your counselor is trained for it. If not, find one. It saved my life. The first appointment is to be open and honest of what you want to get out of being there. I would also interview the counselor and make sure they are going to do their part. There are some that will just listen to you "forever"but never really give you to tools you need to get better.
  • NaturalNancy
    NaturalNancy Posts: 1,093 Member
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    Good for you!
    you are taking a step in making a positive change in your life.
    It can be uncomfortable at times and crying and stuff but it will be ok.
    I think TJ advice above is good!
    Have goals in mind, what u want to get out of it and absolutely ask how they will help you.
    Good luck!
  • CollieFit
    CollieFit Posts: 1,683 Member
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    Lourdesong wrote: »
    Ask when you should expect to benefit from their services.

    That is a question no counsellor will be able to answer.
  • CollieFit
    CollieFit Posts: 1,683 Member
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    PS: I am a counsellor.
  • CollieFit
    CollieFit Posts: 1,683 Member
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    lorimc71 wrote: »
    May I recommend CBT Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. See if your counselor is trained for it. If not, find one. It saved my life. The first appointment is to be open and honest of what you want to get out of being there. I would also interview the counselor and make sure they are going to do their part. There are some that will just listen to you "forever"but never really give you to tools you need to get better.

    CBT may or may not be suitable subject to what the underlying issues are. If the OPs issues are in her past then other modalities may well be much more appropriate.
  • Lourdesong
    Lourdesong Posts: 1,492 Member
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    CollieFit wrote: »
    Lourdesong wrote: »
    Ask when you should expect to benefit from their services.

    That is a question no counsellor will be able to answer.

    Yes, I know. The OP is working extra to pay for a service that may never end. The potential 'benefit' (and there may quite feasibly be none) for the amount of investment involved on the part of the OP (and most people) is something worth considering.
  • CollieFit
    CollieFit Posts: 1,683 Member
    edited February 2016
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    Progress pretty much depends on the willingness and ability of the client to engage constructively with her material, under the guidance of the counsellor. Sometimes people find out they are not ready to work on their issues, but no one ever finds out until they try.

    I don't know what is behind your exceedingly pessimistic "it might not make a difference and be all a great waste of money" thoughts. Perhaps you weren't able to benefit from therapy in the past, but that should not serve as some kind of "warning" to other people wishing to address their own issues?

    Some people's defences and patterns of behaviour are so ingrained over the years that it may well take some time for them to change. Assisting someone with their mental health isn't like calling in a plumber and asking them "how long will you be?". Any counsellor who claims that an as yet unknown client can be "cured" within a predetermined timeframe in my opinion would be a fraud.

    There are however options to agree a certain number of sessions, such as 5 or 10, and then jointly review the position and see if the client feels she is managing better. Therapy doesn't *have* to be open ended.
  • Lourdesong
    Lourdesong Posts: 1,492 Member
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    CollieFit wrote: »
    Progress pretty much depends on the willingness and ability of the client to engage constructively with her material, under the guidance of the counsellor. Sometimes people find out they are not ready to work on their issues, but no one ever finds out until they try.

    I don't know what is behind your exceedingly pessimistic "it might not make a difference and be all a great waste of money" thoughts. Perhaps you weren't able to benefit from therapy in the past, but that should not serve as some kind of "warning" to other people wishing to address their own issues?

    So if someone goes to therapy 2x a week, for years, and spent thousands of dollars, and is no better off, it is because they were unwilling to engage and make sacrifices, or weren't 'ready'. Or perhaps they just need a few more sessions, eh?

    And please don't psychoanalyze strangers, its rude and presumptuous.

  • CollieFit
    CollieFit Posts: 1,683 Member
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    If I felt I had not made progress after years of therapy I would have discussed it with my therapist and possibly looked at seeing another practitioner.

    What I wouldn't do is assume from my own experience that all therapy is useless, and then project my dissatisfaction in to innocent others by trying to talk other people out of it, because it didn't work for me. That is nothing short of irresponsible.
  • Lourdesong
    Lourdesong Posts: 1,492 Member
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    The OP is going to be making a lot of financial sacrifices and sacrifices with her time, and so the financial aspect (the sacrifice) vs benefit (which you pointed out more overtly than I did that no counselor can answer) is worth considering.

    Please stop inventing stories about me just because I'm not in here singing the praises of your profession.

  • brb_2013
    brb_2013 Posts: 1,197 Member
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    CollieFit wrote: »

    There are however options to agree a certain number of sessions, such as 5 or 10, and then jointly review the position and see if the client feels she is managing better. Therapy doesn't *have* to be open ended.

    This is helpful, I didn't know that. I may need to limit it at first, I can only take so many extra babysitting jobs so I can't guarantee being able to continue 6 Mos from now so my counselor should be aware of that right?
  • brb_2013
    brb_2013 Posts: 1,197 Member
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    Lourdesong wrote: »
    The OP is going to be making a lot of financial sacrifices and sacrifices with her time, and so the financial aspect (the sacrifice) vs benefit (which you pointed out more overtly than I did that no counselor can answer) is worth considering.

    Please stop inventing stories about me just because I'm not in here singing the praises of your profession.

    You're both coming from kind places, please don't continue to argue. Lourdesong, I do have concerns about benefits of course no one wants to waste time or money but I will pay attention to chemistry between the counselor and I and see if he's someone I can see myself really opening up to- and I just have to see how it goes. I have tried to made this call (for an appointment) for years and years. Sat on the floor with the number dialed just not able to execute. I'm glad I made it that far.

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