In dire need of motivation

I feel you. It's really hard to find that little voice in yourself to say "you can do it"- I still struggle with it myself. In terms of exercise for me I try really hard to NOT THINK AND JUST DO. This may sound silly but I over think everything- so I try hard to not think about "going to the gym" because if I do I'll come up with every stupid excuse why I can't or shouldn't. I just go-- sounds dumb but it works for me. I get in my car, put some feel good music on (gets me all hyped up) and drive there. I step inside and realize "*kitten* I am here!" First accomplishment right there! You owe it to yourself and your body for 20-30min exercise. It releases stress and will eventually believe it or not build your self esteem. Start simple-walking, etc. As for food just try to change small things first and gradually build your way up. This journey is yours and yours alone. If you do not make a change today then in a year from now you will be wishing you did and feel even worse. You can do it! Be patient, love who you presently are because she is your best friend, DO NOT compare yourself to anyone because we are each our own beautiful and take baby steps! Best of luck to you!

You may or may not find him inspirational. I did. ZYZZ.

I've been there... More than once. Eating out of control which leads to feeling bad which ends in more eating to feel better. It's a horrible cycle and you feel like you can't get out. Start off small. Change your eating habits first. Make healthy meals and prep ahead of time. Focus on increasing your water intake. After a week or two of getting that under control add exercise to your regimen. As long as you make small goals and keep focused it makes it easier to reach your overall goal in time. Believe in your goals and make them happen!