Binging..Please Help?

PeachyMango333
PeachyMango333 Posts: 17 Member
in Motivation and Support
Hey, I really need advice/support, please.

My binging has been getting so out of control; I become mentally drained and devastated for wasting hours of my day succumbing to a night binge, then oppressed by the guilt of resorting to throw the binge up.
I'm a recovering anorexic/bulimic, and I cut out bulimia completely for 2 weeks, and now this binge has killed all my progress.
I enjoy food during the day, but I'm so busy that I don't eat a lot, and it's not from restriction; I just learned to eat slow, savor, and get satisfied quickly and with less. When night comes, I look at my calorie tracker, think about all the calories I burned, then feel obliged to freely eat whatever, and however much, I want.
It's so hard because I'll be like "I'll just have one sugar free jello cup...with some real strawberries, oh and apples too, how about granola?"...and so on, and I hate it. I want my life back. I don't want to rupture my esophagus from throwing up, and i'm tired of wasting hours on this crap instead of my guitar or art.

I used to have a system where I wouldn't eat past 8, and it kept me in check for 2 years; I was happy, and binge free, but now, it's so hard for me to restart that. I can go 2-3 days, then I crash.


Advice? Help? Friends?

please.

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  • Onamissionforfit
    Onamissionforfit Posts: 90 Member
    Feel free to add me. I don't know much about your story but I do know that late night craving.
  • Skillet007
    Skillet007 Posts: 55 Member
    tawnyamorgan1983 wrote: »
    Feel free to add me. I don't know much about your story but I do know that late night craving.

    Ditto that. I'm a binge eater as well. I've never had a problem with bulimia but I do know the feeling of feeling out of control and hopeless. Maybe we can tackle that aspect of our problem together?
  • lbowa1231
    lbowa1231 Posts: 1 Member
    Binger here too...I feel out of control. I do so good during the day. I exercise in the evening to combat the temptation but once everyone settles in for the night:
    A few chips
    Some carrots and dip
    Celery and dip
    3 or 4 wafer cookies
    String cheese
    In shell peanuts
    Spoonful of peanut butter
    And I go to bed guilt ridden and miserable. I get up the next morning and think "new day, fresh start" plan out my meals, track everything, step on the scale and hate myself.
    I start to feel "why bother anymore?" It stinks.
  • chaney3000
    chaney3000 Posts: 267 Member
    Hey, add me as one of your friends. If you want you can message me anytime you feel like binging and I will reply STOP!!!

    Seriously though, if you are binging like that you prob are not getting enough cals during the day and you are succumbing to binging at night. I would suggest spreading out some of your snacks through the day that will keep you eating and suppress the urge to eat. Eating slowly is great and all but you may be depriving yourself of much needed calories.

    Next thing I would do is eat a more balanced meal for diner and if the cals are available reward yourself with a small sweet or whatever you like.

    I'm here for help if you need it.
  • Latitude11Courtney
    Latitude11Courtney Posts: 55 Member
    Hi .. I am so sorry you are feeling so weighted down by this. I often mention that I went to DBT to help with PTSD, depression and anxiety that would sometimes come out as binging.
    Are you sleeping enough, getting enough rest?
    Do you have someone to talk to when you get stressed?
    Also - are you eating whole healthy foods and staying hydrated?
    What other things can help you soothe you through binging... maybe your guitar and art is the answer?
  • Lyndslulu
    Lyndslulu Posts: 2 Member
    I’m sorry you are going through this. I’d suggest not beating yourself up and focus on a new strategy. Have you tried meal planning and prepping? I’ve been prepping five small meals a day that I eat every 2-3 hours. That way I know exactly what I am eating at every meal and snack and I am hitting my calorie goals. This has been saving me from frantically raiding the pantry at home and the break room at the office. You mentioned that you get so busy that you forget to eat, try setting a reminder in your phone. Also there is no shame in talking to a professional. You are dealing with some serious stuff and often professionals have a broader prospective and solid strategies.
  • PeachyMango333
    PeachyMango333 Posts: 17 Member
    It's just, I'm so busy during the day, I'm happy not eating. Like, the thought of wasting time eating makes me unhappy. I feel like this sense of power over my control of calories...like when I used to have a goal of losing weight, that feeling of being able to save 300 calories by skipping meals felt so good. I felt so strong, and it's still the same.

    But, at night, just the thought of having so many excess calories, which I guess I still aim for, feel like they don't matter...don't rollover to the next day, and so my mind is like "what's the point? Binge away, try everything, it doesn't matter if you're actually hungry or not"
    It's like, my body is used to not wanting to eat, or eat a lot, so even when I want to try, it fights me...
  • leahkathleen13
    leahkathleen13 Posts: 272 Member
    The not eating during the day is a good place to start. That alone can fire up the appetite monster like never before.
  • KimF0715
    KimF0715 Posts: 114 Member
    I am a binger too. I have binged all weekend. I am so upset with myself.

    It's stress eating. One of my favorite things to do is curl up with a book and eat. Terrible terrible habit. And yes, once everyone is settled for the night I dig in. Awful.

    When i had the WW app I would have a reminder sent to my phone at my witching hour. I designed it to say "You will REGRET an evening binge!!!!" I wish MFP did that.

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