Just Getting Started

Hi Everyone! I'm Crystal! I'm 24, & I've been struggling to lose weight for awhile but I'm finally getting serious about my weight loss. For the past 4 years, food has become my security blanket when I was dealing with family situations, suicidal thoughts, & depression. Now that I am living on my own & away from the negativity from my past, I can't seem to break away from my food addiction. So far I have been on a two shake, one meal a day diet going on two weeks strong now. I have a protein shake with protein powder, fresh fruit, & almond milk for breakfast, a slim fast shake for lunch, and a regular healthy meal for dinner. I have also started cutting out meat (chicken, ground turkey, fish) on the weekdays & only eating it on the weekends. Some days I do not get off work til 9 p.m, so on those days I will have my breakfast shake, a healthy meal for lunch, & instead of eating that late at night, I will have either a slimfast shake or no sodium broth for dinner. I have also reinstated my gym membership with Planet Fitness & I also purchased a punching bag. I have not been dieting long but I do feel better already. I have lost 2.6 pounds since last Wednesday, & though it is not much, it's a start. Some days are harder than others. My loving fiance has been a great supporter, but sometimes makes it hard for me to stick to my diet when he goes out & buys food & sweets that he knows are my favorite, knowing that I cannot eat it. I have been tempted & I have given in, but I get right back on my horse and keep going. He has already told me that he will not diet with me, forcing me to have to do groceries for myself seperate, but he has started going to he gym with me to help motivate me to go, because I have high anxiety about going alone, & I adore him even more for that. Right now I am at 254, looking to get down to my highschool weight of 180, then from there down to my goal of 160. I know that I have a longgg way to go, but I'm not giving up this time.