50 & Getting Better but Needs HELP!!

In August 2014 I hit the worst weight of my life. 285 pounds. I was miserable both in my life and my body. By complete chance I went to the doctor on Tuesday, I don't recall the reason but it was more than likely because I hurt so much that I needed xanax on a daily basis to calm my ever increasing anxiety down enough to fall alseep. At that visit I was told about a Healthy Balance Weight Management class that I should check out. I did just that and it just so happened the class was the very next day. So the way I see it, fate was jumping in to tell me I needed to make a huge change. And boy did I ever. I met four wonderful women in this class and the friendship began there and so did the weight loss. We started a walking group on my 48th birthday weekend and it only went from there. We started with walking on Saturday mornings and I was hooked. I started walking 6 days a week. In February 2015 I joined a gym and met a personal trainer, El. I bought 8 sessions and we worked out 2 times a week. He didn't accept all my excuses of being old, fat and just plain miserable. He saw something in me that I completely forgot was there, my strength. Not actual physical strength but mental strength. Its amazing he could see that when I couldn't. By the time I started working out at the gym, 6 months, I lost 35 pounds and had started to feel like I was starting to find myself again but still needed something or someone that would help me. I try so hard but still cannot seem to do what it takes to get the weight off. Its now February 2016 and I'm still struggling. I want so badly to drop my weight down to less than 150 pounds but I keep losing my faith in my ability to do so. I make such huge progress and then I let some stupid crap set me back and ruin it for me. So in middle of this February I said enougn is enough. I put my diet back in place and started working out again 5 days a week for no less than 1.25 hours and I am now losing weight again. Its has changed my total outlook just like it changed in August 2014 when the weignt managment class fell into my lap. I will lose this weight. I will get down to my goal weight. I will stay motivated. I will live a very long happy life so my granddaughters and great granddaughters will get to be in my life and know how much I have done and will did so that I could stay in their lifes. Now my only obstacle to achieve this goal is two thngs: MONEY AND WILL POWER

The will power is going strong right now but the money is not. I've got to figure a way to keep earning $400 month to pay my trainer so that he will ultimately kick my butt to keep me going at this point. I'm now earning compliments in regards to my progress on working out. FINALLY.... It's taken me a year working with him to get to this point, but I am so happy it has!!!