Recovered from an eating disorder and got fat..

GabiF147
GabiF147 Posts: 2 Member
edited December 2024 in Introduce Yourself
I'm not sure how this works but I guess I have to introduce myself, so hi,my name is Gabi, I'm 18, I'm Lithuanian but I live in Ireland. I'm 5'8 and I weigh 178.6lbs. I also have broad shoulders so that makes me look alot fatter and makes me very insecure. For almost 7 years of my life I struggled with anorexia binge purge type and borderline personality disorder and was at my lowest weight of 89lbs.I recovered fully in 2014 and was at a normal weight but I started to fall into deep depression as there were alot of issues with family and friends and etc,which made me turn to food for comfort. So here I am now,hating the way I look, but desperately trying to lose weight the healthy way instead of putting my body through the same thing, even now I occasionally binge and then feel guilty and purge.
So I'm here to make the right choice for myself and my body and I'm hoping someone could support me through my journey :)

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  • Ami788
    Ami788 Posts: 7 Member
    Hi Gabi! Please don't think yourself as 'got fat', it's healthier than been anorexic. My eldest daughter is 7 years old and I had her 3 months before my 18th birthday. A couple of years before that I was anorexic myself, I thought I was really fat, I didn't eat a lot and when my parents found out I got made to eat, then I became bulimic, I wasn't megga skinny or anything (well to me anyway, my Dad used to call me 'Bones' ) I have broad shoulders too, I used to look at my school photo s and think I looked fat and manly compared to the other girls. It was only when my first daughter started getting older I realized how stupid I was.. Sorry to put it so plainly, but after going through everything I did and putting my family through it I realized I wasn't as big or as fat as I thought. Now to this day I never say I'm on a diet ,because for some reason it makes me want to pig out on crap, I just keep my head high and take everyday as it comes... I do exercise with my children and to be honest I've been dreading summer coming but I always think in the back of mind 'there's bigger and fatter people than me out there' that always helps me. Just always remember your beautiful to someone, even if it isn't yourself,, just serving little goals each day and you'll get there xx
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