Wow!

Keep going!

my doc prescribed me vyvanse (it's actually an amphetamine tho so take caution) when i was over 200lbs and constantly binge eating (it's normally prescribed for adhd but was also approved in early '15 by the fda for people who struggle with overeating).... it really helped be less impulsive around bad food/stick to a clean, healthy diet plan (with cheat days!) and lose weight (i reached a normal bmi for my height yayyy) ...talking to your MD can help sometimes too (in addition to sites like these) ( :

I was recently diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder, which led me to start a support group for it. I have a link on there with a short test that you should take if you feel like you may be struggling with your eating. For me I would eat until it actually hurt and that was my signal to finally stop. I would also eat in secret shame, I would buy bags of candy or doughnuts eat them rapidly and hide all evidence from my family. Or I would raid the pantry at my house and lie to my kids about what happened to their candy and snacks. I honestly felt like I was powerless when it came to food, this unseen urge would take over me and dictate how much I would eat and I could not stop it no matter how hard I tried. I later came to find out that the stresses in my life built up so much and I did not know how to handle them, so it turned into an eating disorder that went on for years, that left me feeling powerless and out of control.